Immoral Deeds

The girl in the black beanie - 1

I watched as the people chatted with each other with joyous smiles on their faces. why couldn't I be like that? I wish i had friends to hang out and socialise with. But no, I only had one true friend. Don't get me wrong. Noa was the best friend anyone could ever ask for. we grew up together in the same poor neighbourhood we live in now. i could count on Noa for anything but sometimes i wish i had additional support. My seven siblings were a hassle, even though i loved them unconditionally, sometimes i just wanted to get away. I've been raising kids since i was a kid. That's not fair at all. I never got to witness a childhood. I've been working since I could remember.

It all started when i was only seven years old. Noa and i would go into old man John's shop and steal bags of sweets as he slept at the register. We would run and out and go to school the next day to sell what we had taken. The money we made was always split evenly between us two. Noa had a sick mother, and a little sister to provide for and then I only had two little brothers, my mother and my drunk of a father. Dad was really never much of a dad. He never provided for his kids, he never payed the bills, he never kissed our cheeks or gave us hugs when we got good grades on our report cards, and he never told us he loved us. Sure, he would say it when he was pissed drunk or when he was being overly sarcastic, but he never told us he truly loved us. Mom was a good mom, but she always had bad back problems. she couldn't hold a job for long. So it was all up to me. 

It would be nice to sometimes get a pat on the back, maybe a 'You're doing an amazing job, Athena' or 'I don't know what the kids would do without you, Athena', but all i ever got was a passed out cold dad on the kitchen floor at three o'clock in the morning. "Hey, girl" Noa yelled after she just lightly slapped my face. I gave her a confused look, I must have zoned out again. That happens frequently. "You really gotta stop blanking out on me like that, Thena!" Noa gave me a soft smile before looking out into the crowd of people i was looking at. "How much in tips have you gotten tonight?"

"Not much," I replied honestly. "I've waited about ten tables tonight, and I've gotten about 14 pound to show for it." The worst part is I was a decent waitress. I was the type that occasionally came to your side to see if you wanted a refill, or you wanted a takeout plate; yet I still get tipped like shit. "I'm just ready for this shift to end. I'm not feeling it tonight. All these people don't know a bit about where we come from or what struggle is. They just sit on their fat asses and stuff their faces and rudely yell out for their check and dip out without even leaving a decent tip."

Noa laughed at me.

"someones caught up in their feels tonight. I tell you what, when we get off, why don't we go home, take a shower, get dressed, and then go out to a club? Its a Saturday so the kids don't have school tomorrow, they'll be fine without you." I didn't feel like going out, but I was sort of down. Maybe going out could uplift my mood. I just may meet a cute girl, or some stupid guy that refuses to believe I'm a lesbian just may keep buying me drinks until he realises the I'm actually not giving up anything.

"It's a deal," I replied with a soft smile. All I needed was to shake myself loose. I needed to let out a bit of frustration on the dance floor, and I'd be alright. Suddenly, one of my busty co-workers appeared in view. I worked several jobs, but this was just some late night food joint. The guys loved to come for the beer, and for the skimpy outfits the waitresses wore.Right now, my stomach was showing, most of my legs, my arms, and a bit of cleavage. Most guys drooled over me, and some girls, but almost everyone drooled at the blonde girl approaching me.she had boobs galore with a small waist, curvy hips, a big ass, and thick thighs. Guys would slur all the lamest pick up lines and shed always decline with a laugh. she was married, with two kids to worry about. The things that guys said always went in one ear and out the other.

"These men are straight up dogs," the woman said once she approached us.

"Amen, sister," Noa said before giving jasmine a high five. "I guess that's why Thena here only carpet munches."