A glimpse of my mind

10 YEARS

Who is a soul mate?

A Soul mate is a person whom you could lean on to, a person you could trust, a person whom you look in the eyes and feel safe, the person whose single touch gives you butterflies, the person who makes you feel belonged, a person familiar with every part of your soul. The person who makes you feel secure and most certainly the person who does not treat you like an option.

I was sitting on the grass watching the sunset, cuddling with my soul mate. At least I thought he was because when I looked into his grey eyes I saw love and when he held me in his arms, the world seemed like a blurry image, when I inhaled his scent I was drifted to a complete different world.

He kissed me on the forehead bringing me back to life "what are you thinking princess? He asked me looking straight in my eyes, I gently separated my body from his warmness "Will you forget about me when you go to college next week? I asked with a hint of sadness.

He pulled me closer and kissed my lips like the world was ending and whispered in my ear "you're stuck with me for life princess, whether you like it or not". I giggled and hugged him tighter.

We stayed like that for hours and then he said "You know, I can't wait for the day when we both finally get married , have decent jobs and bring our kids to this same park and watch this sunset together with them". I giggled and replied " I can't wait for that day to come too".

The next week

Promise to call me every day and take care of your self I say with tears rolling down my eyes and with a fake smile, I hugged and kissed him one last time, and with that he went away.

It's been 3 weeks and 4 days and there are no calls or text from Zach, well I know he is alive because I checked his social media and realized that he deleted all of the pictures he had with me and his latest post was about 5 hours ago, with a blonde chick wrapped around him and raising a toast together with the caption "Freedom is the greatest gift a person could ask for".

And me being me I have been crying like an idiot while starring at that picture for the last 5 hours. I want to get inside the screen and scream and shout at him that why did he do this to me?

I loved him with my full heart and he gave me nothing but betrayal.

10 years later

It's been 7 years 5 months and 15 days since I came to this park. This place gives me nothing but memories of him, I still remember that 17 year old Nicolette crying and begging for him to come back,

But now it's all in the past, I am a 27 year old successful writer now and I hate the fact that I am still in love with him.

I sat on the same spot on which we used to sit on our birthday, which was on Christmas eve and watch the night sky. I got lost in the beauty of the sky that I didn't even noticed a 7 year old girl standing beside me, she mouthed a shy hi to me.

She looked really familiar but I wasn't able to recognize her, she had blonde hair and the same grey eyes, the eyes I can never forget, I cleared my throat "Excuse me do I know you?" I asked with a soft voice to make sure I don't scare her away.

She tuck a strand of hair behind her ear and said "Oh no, I am just a really big fan of your poetries can I have your autograph please?"

I was shocked that I have this young fans, I cleared my throat and replied "sure, what's your name apple pie?". She said "Nicolette"

My hands froze while signing that piece of paper, and suddenly I heard a really familiar voice shouting, "Nicolette, princess where are you?". I still remember he used to call me that when we used to play hide and seek together.

A guy dressed in a white sweatshirt and black jeans came into sight behind her, The same White sweatshirt I was wearing, The same sweat shirt we gave each other on this day as birthday presents, my whole body started feeling like I've just ran a marathon. He scooped up that girl into his arms and kissed her cheeks and said "Daddy missed you?" she giggled and said "Daddy, I met Nicolette my favorite poet".

He looked at me with his eyes widen in shock and we both became speechless for a while, he has not changed a lot, he has the same dirty blonde hair and the same grey eyes I used to stare at for hours and the same lips I used to kiss every time I saw him.

He coughed awkwardly and extended an arm towards me and said "Hey, I am Zach, nice meeting you". I returned the gesture while shaking his hands and said "I am Nicolette". His daughter ran away from his arms and screamed "Mommy, I met Nicolette".

A very beautiful blonde women came walking towards me and she shaked my hand and said " Nice meeting you, I am Chloe".

I returned the gesture and signed the piece of paper and gave it back to the little girl. They started leaving and then Zach rushed over to me and awkwardly said, "Happy Birthday princess" and I replied "Happy Birthday Silly". It was a phrase we used to call each other.

He gave me a stern nod and went away and I fell asleep starring at the sky again, I guess some things are better left unsaid.