Succubus ✔(Bucky Barnes X OC X Steve Rogers) AU

Chapter 10✔️

Freyja-

Inhaling the fresh sea breeze as it brushed past me, whipping my hair back. The wind leaving a cold tingle on my cheeks as it tries to dry the tears. The water was hitting the cliff side hard, clouds hover above me, keeping it grey toned and eerie.

I had to get out of there. The moment I had shared with Steve had felt too overwhelming for me in the end. I knew being with him would be different. I had never really been with a virgin before, but the emotion he put into it...It just made me feel guilt. Like I've cheated or something. I couldn't deal with it, so I ran. I'll go back, but I needed to get out. I wanted to see him again. I knew it was impossible. He's gone. Never to return. That was my fault. I did this to him. I did this to myself. I can't do this to Steve, or even to Bucky. I feel something for them both. Not love. But something is there. Something Familiar.

I stared out to the Sea as it splashed up against the boards around the cliff. Jagged rocks at the bottom. It was beautiful. He would have loved it. It was his thing. The sea. He always told me it held such magic. So many creatures swimming around, it creates life, but it also takes it. The blues mixing together and glistening pulling any and all eyes to it. No one could resist just to stare at the beautiful water.

Thunder rumbled as a lightning strikes somewhere behind me. I ignored it, just staring out at the sea. I knew who it was. It was only a matter of time before they came for me. I wonder if it was Steve who noticed my absence. Or maybe Wanda who didn't see me in the gym later? It didn't matter. They found me. It hadn't taken them as long as I had hoped. I have been here for a few hours. I could tell since the sun was setting back down.

"You're not going to jump are you?" A voice spoke up next to me. I glanced over slightly. Loki. Dressed in his black suit, looking like he doesn't belong. Well he doesn't. He shouldn't be here. I could feel the anger in my stomach stirring. He shouldn't be here, at the sea. It's his fault. Loki must have noticed the glisten of tears on my cheeks and took my silence as a right to speak more. "Freyja, I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd be this upset at me." He muttered out as he looked out at the sea.

"You didn't think." I hissed out. His gaze snapped to me. My eyes shining blue, anger was seeping through me. I don't know what emotion was stronger. Anger, resentment, grief, betrayal, loss....The emotions were too strong for me. The wind had picked up a bit. "You didn't think when you shoved me off the BiFrost. Didn't think that I would live did you?" I snapped my gaze to look at his eyes, tears were glowing under my eyes, Loki was about to reach for my hand, but I stepped back. I somewhat noticed Thor behind us, ready to step in. Loki looked hurt when I avoided his touch. Good, he should feel hurt. Just like he made me feel. Emotions were threatening to seep out of my pores, I could feel my skin burning. "I wish I didn't live." I whispered. The wind brought my words to him. His eyes wide, hurt and concern etched into them. "I wish I would have died that day. In a way I did." I turned to look at Thor. He was taking a step forward, ready to hold me. To hold his dear sister close in her loss. But I shook my head. "I didn't die that day, so many years ago. But someone did. And I will never forgive you for it." I said as I looked back at Loki. His eyes held confusion. He didn't understand.

"What do you mean? Who died, Sister?" Thor asked gently, his confusion etched throughout his words.

I turned my head to him, my hand floated to my lower stomach, cradling what could have been. The words traveling through the breeze as it died out. "My child." As the words hit Loki and Thor's ears, utter shock and horror stretched on their faces. Loki backed up, he was disgusted with himself. I could see it. The gears turning in his head, he was trying to backtrack, see where he went wrong. How could he not have known his own sister was with child that day? How had he not seen the glow across her face before he shoved her away? What kind of brother was he? I could see the types of questions he probably had running through his mind.

Thor stepped closer to me. He knew what questions needed to be answered. "Who's child, Sister? Who did you..." I glanced at him, my eyes flooding with tears.

"Njord. God of the Seas, Wealth and Fertility." I whispered. I looked back to the sea. My love...

"Didn't Njord-"

"He died. I killed him." Loki snapped his eyes to his sister. Shock was a permanent emotion on his face now, mix with disgust for himself and sorrow for the innocent loss. "The day I conceived, I went too far. I didn't mean to." My voice was starting to quiver. "And the day I killed Penelope was the day I came to tell Loki of my child. But I had heard her talking of her plans to another. A man she was seeing behind closed doors." Loki and Thor stared at their sister as she explained what happened the day they thought they had lost her forever. "So I seduced her. I made the man watch. Loki..." I glanced over to meet his eyes. "You found me afterwards. You didn't let me explain. I chased after you. My brother. The one who knew of all of my secrets. You ran from me. And then you shoved me. Like a monster." I let a whimper escape my lips. "I lost my child on Sakaar. A Valkyrie helped me. It was already too late though." I let out a sob, hearing the woman in my head again, feeling my legs giving out from under me. Thor ran forward and grabbed me, holding me up. Loki was backing up, he didn't know what to do, how to react.

Thor looked at Loki. "You should go." He muttered. His eyes were lit up with electricity. Loki looked at him in horror. "Go. Before I make you regret your betrayal more." Thunder was heard over us, as I sobbed into his arm, small screams mixed with whimpers echoing through the field. Loki was gone. "Shhh, I've got you. I'm not letting you go, Sister. I've got you." He held me tighter as he lifted me up in his arms. My head hiding in his chest as I just sobbed. "I've got you. I promise." With that he flew us away. Back to the tower. To the Hero's who I was scared to hurt. To Steve. To Bucky. To my new family.

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