𝙸 𝙶𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝙸𝚝𝚜 𝙳𝚒𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝙷𝚒𝚖.

Kill, feed, mate, repeat

Edward had a weird way of going about life. Not only was he a vampire but even at that he still had weird animalistic instincts. Kill, feed, mate, repeat. As much as he likes to pretend to be above that there is something still monster about him, something about vampires in general. When you think of vampires you don't think of the inner monster that Edward feels. He has never given into those temptations; it's not like he wanted to anyway. It just how the Cullen's lived life they were above other vampires they are refined elegant some would say even graceful. Edward has always felt the instincts more when Bella would bring over Jacob. Not like bringing him over to have a cup of tea more like to fight about Bella , look at him like a monster almost like he knew about the monster before Edward even did. It's not like he hated Jacob. He had some kinda respect for the way he lived. If Jake had a instinct to do something he did it and if Edward had one he repressed it and kept going with his "human like" life this all came to the change when one day Bella woke up and made him get along with Jacob something about "he's my best friend" and "he was there for me when you weren't" just to guilt him a little bit more into having "dinner" with him not like Edward is going to eat anything but there he was standing in front of the town dinner looking like a idiot waiting. He gets a text from Bella "Jake is running late the pack needed him but he's on his way now" Edward gets this weird feeling in his chest as he thinks

So he isn't standing me up

He smiles softly to himself and makes his way into the dinner asking for a table and sitting down. In some weird way he feels like a teenager waiting for their date to arrive. He didn't like the feeling in his chest at all. It wasn't warm but it felt like it should be. He hears the door swing open to see a frantic Jacob looking for Edward and almost rushing over to him when Ed waved him over Jacob sat down and looked directly at the table "are you okay?" Edward asked but he could hear Jacob think loudly. His thoughts were frantic and scrambled. "Yeah other than being forced to do dinner with you my day has been okay.." he smirks up at Edward with kinda a small chuckle "oh come on I'm not that bad'' Edward also smiles back at Jacob and his thoughts get louder and louder almost begging for Edward to listen in. maybe it was because he was a werewolf or maybe Edward just wanted to know that bad what he was thinking. Whatever it was he could feel those instincts coming back in the back of his head he could feel them just looking at Jacob waiting for him to form a coherent thought

Goddamit why does this leech have to be so....cute so welcoming he's trying so hard for Bella and the way he smiles makes me blush..

"You're not bad yourself.. mutt" Edward mumbles not caring what Jacob thought anymore. If he was going to be honest he felt kinda free when Jacob was around. A natural instinct to run and hunt and....the words repeated in his head. Kill, feed, mate, repeat. "What?..." it hit Jake like a train "were you listening to my thoughts!?" he tried to keep his anger and embarrassment to a minimum but the words came out rougher than he wanted "they are very loud.. it's no like I want to hear what your inner dialogue is... I'm going to be honest with you-" he's cut off by a woman walking up to their table "hello gentlemen what can i get for you today?" she glanced over at Jacob and then stared at Edward looking him up and down and then back at Jacob with a smirk "what do you and your husband want sir?" Jacob almost spit out his water "mh!!" he swallowed hard and cleared his throat "were not husbands- do i look- you know what never mind..." she looked back Edward and then to Jake "I'm so sorry you guys just.. seem close?" Edward almost laugh out loud instead he just smirked and decided to order "my husband will have a burger and fries and I'll just have a water please" Jake could feel his cheeks light up and his mind race hopefully Edward wasn't listening "oh? Er- coming right up!! You can call if you need anything" she left quickly and they were alone once again "why would you do that!?" Jacob snapped and the other boy whose eyes flickered to an almost red "you were thinking it weren't you? I heard it while you guys were talking" i wish he was my husband "Yeah but-" Edwards eyes got a deeper red "Ed your eyes people are gonna stare" Jacob whispered Edward was one shocked by the new nickname it made his heart race "s-sorry.. I didn't even realize.. that's strange i normally i have control over that.." he looks at his hands and presses his fingers to his eyes turning them back to that almost unnatural gold "better" Jake smiled at him Edward felt that strange tinge in his chest again. The waitress came up with their food and Jacob ate while Edward watches. He watches Jake pick up his food examining him, watching his teeth chew and his mouth move. What is this feeling? Why was Edward watching him so close "dude your eyes.." Jacob said making Edward snap out of it "I-I don't know what's happening" he can feel his stomach flip when Jacob looks at him a certain way "we should go- but I still wanna hang out and i don't want you to leave..i mean! You can its okay.. I really don't want him to it like hanging out" the dark haired boy laughed and pointed to his head almost to signal him to listen to jakes thoughts