Not my fault,My fate

Chapter Forty-five

Theme: Just a conversation.

    😈💜TANIA'S POV😓💔

   "I'm moving out" Adrian said.

  "Moving out??! To where? What about your Dad?!" I asked.

   "My Dad? What about him?!"

   "Uhm..... You are not gonna leave him all by himself here, will you?!"

    "Of course that's what I'm going to do and he's not by himself..... He was never by himself, if he was..... He wouldn't confidently let me go when I needed him the most"

     "But......"

    "Babeee,we are not gonna start talking about my 'Dad' and ruin the atmosphere, aren't you happy for me?!" He said as he cut in.

   "I'm happy..... And sad,I mean you are leaving so soon and I don't know how I will cope without you close"

   "Cmon! Besides I'm not leaving yet,not until our final exams"

    "The final exam is in less than two months..... Its almost here" I said with a frown.

    "And we'd be together everyday preparing for the exam and your musical presentation when Julliard gives you an appointment...... Don't be worried babe!"

    "And after two months,we won't see everyday anymore..... Its gonna be long distance??"

     "Of course we'll still see,the new place I got is in town where my mum resides and that's just a few miles from here..... I promise we'd see almost all the time"

    "I miss you already" I said pouting my mouth like a grumpy child.

    "I knew that's what this face was all about...... Come here" And he pulled me into his arms and gave me a tight cuddle reassuring me that everything will be alright and distance won't be a barrier to our love.

  
    Once again,I wasn't able to talk about his Dad or mention that I was with his Dad on my birthday,I know how much he hates him...... Yeah I also hated his Dad twice as much but just one conversation and my whole view about him changed, I think that's the problem with Adrian and his Dad..... 'Just one conversation'__ They need to rub minds and see beneath the surface, the problem is I don't see that happening soon....... Once Adrian moves out,he might never come back again.

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    It was in the middle of the night and I woke up with a heavy heart,I was breathing so fast and it felt like my lungs were tight and I was choking. Beads of sweat on my forehead and my vision blurred as I was half-awake...... I struggled to reach for my pills in my drawer beside my bed but it was difficult as I was so uncomfortable.

    As I stretched for the pills in pain, I rolled off the bed and hit myself on the ground. It was so painful and I was groaning in pains,I tried to call for help and the last thing I said was "Mum..... Dad,pls help" before I passed out.

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   I woke up to the bright rays of the sun on my bed,it felt like I've been sleeping for days...... But I felt better than I was this morning, I opened my eyes and saw my mum and the doctor beside my bed. They must have called the doctor when I was found unconscious on the floor.

   Mum rushed to hug me when she saw I opened my eyes, "How do you feel now??" and several other questions followed, the doctor asked few questions of how I felt too before he left my room. It was just mum and I left in the room,she couldn't stop staring at me and asking questions of how I was feeling...... I'm fineeeeeee mum!!

   "Is something bothering you?!" Mum asked.

   "Me?? No" I replied.

   "You know you can tell me anything right?! Mum asked as she was still buttressing on the same point.

   She knew something was up,I don't know how she does it__ I mean I don't look worried, do I?! But I could not stop thinking about so many things before I fell asleep last night....... And then the seizure happened at midnight.

   " I don't know, I guess something is wrong" I said trying to come out clean.

    "Tell me honey,I'm all ears"

   "Adrian is moving out..... He's .... He's leaving for town,someplace close to where his mum stays"

   "Ohh! I'm sorry honey..... You miss him already, don't you?!!" Mum said with pity in her voice as she hugged me.

     "Yes i will,But that's not all there is to it........ Its about him and his Dad,they have not been really close as family should and it created a huge scar in Adrian's heart that he's not willing to ever reconcile with his Dad"

    "What about his Dad?! Is he willing to reconcile?" Mum asked.

    "Yes he is,he regrets all his actions towards Adrian and wishes he could set things right. But I don't know how to tell Adrian all these or make him see his Dad regrets his actions of the past, I'm scared he might get mad at me"

   "See honey....... Adrian loves you so much and I can see that,I see the way he looks at you,he shows you the same care and attention your Dad showed me when he wanted me to be his woman. Go ahead and talk to him..... If he truly loves you,there's no way he'd get mad at you, no matter the anger he carries and hate he has towards his Dad,he's still his father..... He's just angry and if his Dad never treated him well from the beginning then he has every right to be mad..... So go ahead and talk to him honey"

   "Alright mum....." I said with a sigh.

    "Is that all that's bothering you??" Mum asked.

    "Well that's not all..... I have unanswered questions concerning Dad's behavior towards my Julliard application"

   "You applied already??!" Mum asked with her eyes widely opened.

    "Not yet,I still have to write the final exams"

    "Ohh well,your Dad is just being.... Uhm... How do I say this.... He's going to miss you.... And doesn't want you to study someplace far,you know how much your Dad loves you,he's just been a scaredy-cat😅😅"

   "Are you sure??! I feel he's hiding something.... Last time he mentioned something about me not being strong enough yet.....  Like I'm still ill or something"

    "Don't mind your Dad,you are fine honey! Don't worry too much about things that don't need worrying about..... Get some rest honey!" Mum said as she kissed my forehead and left my room.

    That was weird,when I mentioned the illness part that Dad said..... Mum quickly wrapped up the conversation and left my room,perhaps she's also hiding something and she definitely knows the reason for my Dad's adamant behaviour.

    Instead of getting answers to my questions, I just had more unanswered questions. So I stood up quietly from my bed and tip-toed out of my room. I saw mum and the doctor together, they were probably discussing about my health..... I got bored eavesdropping on their boring talk until I heard something else entirely.

   "I'm afraid the relapse has started,she might not be able to make it this time" Dr.Nelson said.

    The Relapse??!! I asked myself in shock.

    "How long do we have?" Mum asked in tears.

    "I'm sorry but its less than a........" Dr. Nelson said.