Levi x Reader///Melancholy

a messed up smile

y/n

teenagers slowed

I wasn't sure how many days went by. Tomorrow I will finally be able to get up again, but I haven't been able to move because my cut could open up again. Since then people have been filling me in on everything.  

Eren's experience at the old Scout base. The murder of two experiment titans. Who joined the Scouts and who didn't. A Female Titan and the horrors they had to face while on the 57th Exterior Scouting Mission.   

During that whole time, I've just been in this room. Every day the walls feels like they are closer together. The room feels musty and sticky. I needed to get out.  

There was a knock on my door. I didn't bother saying anything because many people have come in and out. However,  there was a new visitor this time.  

"Y/N correct?" Commander Erwin asked, closing the door behind him. 

I sat up with respect and nodded my head, "Yes."

"We will need your help tomorrow escorting Eren to the capitol. We are to be discreet and we will need the most help we can get," he explained to me.  

I nodded my head and stood up. My legs felt weak. My body wasn't used to standing after lying in bed for so long. A hand gripped my arm and stabilized me. I looked at how close Erwin's face was to mine and I think I blushed because I felt my face get hot. 

I looked away so he wouldn't see my stupid looking face. Argh! Y/N stop embarrassing yourself. 

"Maybe you can take one more day," he suggested. 

I walked back to get out of his grasp, "No, that's fine. If anything thank you because I hate being in this room." 

"Ok but if I don't think you are ready tomorrow then I'm sending you back," Erwin comfortably smiled.  

I nodded my head and put my hand on my heart as I watched him leave. I let out a breathe of air and landed back on my bed. I put my hands on my cheeks and smacked them. 

"Stupid stupid stupid," I criticized myself.  

I looked up at the wooden ceiling and saw the picture of Erwin's smile and then the feeling he gave me when he touched my arm. I shook my head to the left and right over and over again to shake away the thoughts. The last time I had a crush on somebody was probably 8 years ago. It was this boy named Ben with fluffy, black hair.  That was my first and last relationship and it was more entertaining than beneficial. 

I'm 21. I can't be dealing with stupid stuff like this. I needed to get back into shape before tomorrow. I really didn't want to be stuck in my room for another day. I guess I should head out and get something for lunch. After I'll head to the training area and see what my body could do.  

I was so annoyed at myself for accidentally leaving a huge gash in my stomach. I only pushed Mikasa out of the way, Levi was the one who supposedly killed the two titans.

"Oi! Shorty!" Jean waved to me. He was with Sasha, Conny, and Armin. Eren and Mikasa were talking on their own to the side.  

"Don't call me that," I snarled at him. 

Sasha looked at me and poked my stomach,  "Have you been eating?" 

"If I eat or drink anything it just pours out of my cut," I said seriously. 

Sasha, Conny, and Jean all looked shocked, "Really?"

"No!" I said angrily. 

"Y/N, I really can't thank you enough-"

"Mikasa please. You've apologized and helped me enough," I nodded my head as a symbol of gratitude.  

"Come, we haven't eaten lunch yet," Conny offered. I followed them into the dining room and was greeted with the familiar smell of soup and bread. It felt good to be up and walking again even if I was with a bunch of idiots. 

We  sat at our normal table and we all ate the bland food. I looked up and saw Eren looking at me with a worried expression.  

"Stop staring at me," I said half jokingly.

"Did Y/N just say something that wasn't that cold?" Jean roared. 

"I think she did! I think she did!" Sasha said with food in her mouth.  

I looked away from her with disgust. I guess it was kind of true. I definitely wasn't as mean and distant as I was when I first arrived. I learned that it took too much energy to try to constantly hate everyone. Plus, I did appreciate having people around. I wanted to be alone but I didn't want to be lonely. I also appreciated how much these idiots handled my attitude.

"If I smile, will you shut up?" I asked Connie, Jean, and Sasha. Armin, Mikasa, and Eren were all slightly giggling to themselves.

They nodded their heads like dogs. I brought my left side of my mouth up and then the other side. I showed my teeth the best I could.  

"That's a smile?"

"You look constipated."  

"M-maybe we will work on it later."  

I rolled my eyes, "Don't say I didn't do anything for you." 

We finished eating and with a full belly I headed over to the training area. 

"Y/N,  I need to talk to you," Armin called out behind me. Eren and Mikasa behind him. They are always together huh? 

I stopped, letting them catch up to me. Armin looked around suspiciously, like he was afraid somebody might be here. 

"We think we know who the Female Titan is," he announced.

My heart stopped with anticipation. 

"It's Annie."