May 2021
I don't want kids. I have decided that kids are not for me. Not because i hate kids but because I don't want to pass down my genes to them.
I have eczema.
Now at 20 years old it has finally occurred to me that my skin condition is really bad. All along in my brain the severity of my condition didn't really register in my head. I have been dealing with this for about 10 years. I have no idea how it suddenly occurred and how to deal with it. I have always been hopeful that it would get better and that I could heal and be normal.
Looking at my friends and family having no problems with their skin always made me wonder what its like to live normally. Before knowing that it was eczema i thought it was a punishment for me.
Sometimes looking different from others makes you feel like an alien. When I was younger I didn't know I am different but slowly as I grew up it became apparent that i have to take extra steps to be absent in society.
Sometimes comments from friends hurt, they don't realize it but it hurt.
The ones that kept repeating in my brain hurt the most.
"I have to take good care of my skin so it doesn't become like yours"
"Hey, look at skin girl!"
