Writing about what I feel is not really my thing.... Im not even good at writing essays.... I even hate reading..... But i never knew that writing can relieve your stress.... when I write about something i can't really have a good point cuz i don't really feel doing it.... But this time, it's different.... Cuz my heart is drowning in sadness and i want to write it all down in here..... It's about the woman of my life..... she is something to fight for.... But I don't know if she is willing to do the same to me..... what could be the outcome if she and i share the love with each other...... I really sound like a pussy bitch....
Confidence, that is something i don't have when she's around.... And those guys that can talk to her with full confidence just makes me feel so jealous and eventually make me sad for an entire day.... she's the reason why I'm happy, she's the reason why I'm sad and this just makes me mad..... When I'm with my circle of friends even for a whole day together with them doesn't seem to compare the joy I feel when I talk to her even for a seconds...... She and I are totally opposite.... She likes reading books and I don't cuz I'm more of a visual kind a guy.... I'm into sports and she's not.... She's into singing and my voice suck as hell..... How can i do this? how can the both of us relate with each other? I'm the man so it's my job to start a conversation but my mind is just always blank when she's around.... Those memories that she talked to me are what keeping my hopes up
