I've been alone for so long.

Chapter 12

Pov Sugawara

"Hey, what are you going to do?" "Nothing important just telling Koe that today I wont play. If I don't do so she'll kill me." "Why can't you play?" "Because youre here and that wouldn't be respectful." I replied "Oh, come on I want to watch you playing. Pleeeeeeaaaaase." "Wait a sec. Are you sure about that?" "Yep." "Okay then."

I can't believe he agreed. I joined as quickly as I could to the gang. I found out I was trapped in the middle of a battle but soon was able to get out of there and help out everybody by giving them recovery potions and shields. I could feel Masaki staring and he didn't stop criticising the whole thing.

"Bye guys. See you all tomorrow." That was the last thing we all told each other. The call finished and I forced Masaki into bed.

"Are you still asleep?" "Okay, what is wrong? It is the third time you have said that in the last 37 seconds." "It's nothing. I'm just thinking weird things again." "Don't tell me that runs in the family." "Nope." "Then" "Are you in love big brother?" "IN LOVE!?!" What kind of question is that? Why does he think I'm in love? In love with who? I'm more confused than I've ever been in my whole life. What the hell.

"Is something wrong?" "N-n-no. Your question just surprised me." "Sooooo, whats the answer?" "I don't think so." "Oh, come on big brother. It's obvious you like Shimizu-san." KIYOKO!!!!! Why does he think I like her? She is my friend but its only that. Right. Right. Why do I feel myself blushing? And why is my heart pounding so hard? What is wrong with me? Have I had feelings for her but never realised it? Is that even possible? I thought if you loved someone it was going to be pretty obvious. Right? Or am I wrong? What am I thinking?

She is beautiful and her smile makes the whole world just shine but I don't think I love her. Or do I?

"Koushi. Are you going to answer? Did I say something wrong?" "Hey Masaki, why do you think I'm in love with Kiyoko?" "I don't know. During the whole meal you were smiling like crazy and blushing widely. I thought it was weird. Maybe it was just cold or something but I wasn't red. That means you were blushing." "Oh my god. I don't even know myself anymore. I mean she is pretty and everything, but I never thought of her that way." "Well, I guess I made a mistake. Sorry." "Don't worry Masaki. It wasn't a mistake." "What do you mean?" "Your question made me realise something that I've never realised before. Responding to your question. Yes, I guess its true." "Yeeeeees!!! CELEBRETION TIME COME ON!!!!"

I laughed. He was standing on his bed jumping like crazy. Dancing and singing the song celebration from Kool & The Gang.

"Come on to bed. We can talk about it later." We both went to sleep. I fell asleep really quickly. And for once I didn't have a pit in my stomach. My heart was normal. None of my ribs hurt. For once in a long time, I wasn't alone. I was happy. A different type of happiness. I was happy of still being alive.