After the message I sent confessing to her about having romantic feeling for her.
I felt that, she'd stay away from me as much as possible. Neglecting my existence and fearing that I might try to do something to her.
I would have never wanted that.
But, if that's what she's bound to do someday and leave me, I'd settle down to talk rather than stepping down a foot to decide that impacts greatly.
Even if it means leaving her.
Thank goodness she didn't do that though. She is a great person to be around with, both as a friend to admire and a person to love romantically.
That was all I could think of while I was in the shower this morning.
It's 12 am and I thought of hanging out with her tomorrow, so I messaged her
"Wanna eat ice cream tomorrow?"
She didn't reply immediately, but it was fine since she's busy with her family and playing games.
Lmao nvm scratch that, she replied a minute later, I'm never underestimating this bitch again.
"Sure!"
And with that one word message, I was sprung up with joy. The hardest part was sleeping early after the interaction.
I immediately got my things ready for tomorrow, set my alarm, played music to drown in and slept immediately as I was floating in the music slowly, being sucked into the portal to another world where only I know exists and where I only have access to.
Suddenly, I woke up, but I was nowhere in my room, or any part of my home at all.
I was floating in the beautiful night sky with purple reminiscing and the stars spread effortlessly in the sky, with the moon just above me.
Feeling warmth in my right hand and as I looked over, she was there beside me. Looking at me just like how I admire at her, with the sweetest smile I had ever seen on her.
I made her go in front of me, I held her hips and raising her right hand, intertwining each other's fingers. Exchanging warmth just as how much I've wanted to for a long time.
We slow danced in the sky gracefully, feeling no limits below or around us.
As the city lights below us continue to glow for us to embrace the feeling and atmosphere, I brought her body closer to mine, hugging her whilst holding onto her hand tightly.
I will never let go. No matter what
And she whispered something in my ear, I couldn't hear and as I ask her to say it once more, I fell.
As the city lights covered my body to be tucked away from her sight, I accepted the fate.
It felt like it was needed to.
I raised my right hand to her and smiled before no longer seeing any one of the stars. Or even the moon behind her.
She looks so beautiful even when the light is behind her, I can still see her eyes being more beautiful than the constellations in the sky, her smile filled with wholesomeness and joy.
Oh how I wished a camera captured her image accurately. No picture can make her adorableness stay permanent after the first look.
My alarm sounds beep as I open my eyes slowly and turn it off, I got out of the bed and got myself ready for later.
*a lot of minutes later cos the author cant count*
I was greeted by the ray of sunshine as I got out of the bus and waited for her at the spot I dropped off to.
Needless to say, I was very excited to spend time with her.
But, what was the most exciting was, what I planned for the day.
We'll be going to a petting zoo first, then eat at a cafe, I booked a hot air balloon ride with flowers too. In her favorite color; Sky blue.
This is pretty off topic but, in terms of picking out a favorite type of blue, I'd pick Indicolite blue or Tiffany blue.
Dandelion yellow and Lavender purple are actually my two favorite colors, not to mention my favorite flowers too.
I don't know why, but I cant seem to shut myself up when I talk to myself about the things I like. Even when it makes me insecure and feel narcissistic about it.
Is this normal?
I don't trust myself when the problem revolves around me because I know damn well I'm the problem who started it.
Once you start being open, you already feel regret about doing it, wanting to stop, but there's no turning back.
As you keep saying those wave of words, in mid way it feels relieving. But, in the end after that wave, you just feel cringe and bitter inside. And that's all on you and you hate it for that.
That's how I function myself everyday honestly. Can't help it then in the end its gonna be full of regret.
