Somebody To You (Mikasa x Female Reader)

A Deadly Desire

Warning: This chapter contains the slight presence of mature sexual content (+18)

For a long time you had not felt the fear up close, that burning, tight feeling in your chest that kept reminding you of why you had to remember about it. Your main concern in the middle of the last week of preparation at the camp was about what would happen when the time to face graduation arrived, as that was where both your fate and those of your friends would be decided. The main problem in your mind was facing the reality that, probably, each one would follow a different path from your own, it would be the definitive departure.

After all these years alone, imagining your newest friends having to go far hurt your heart deeply. It was surreal how, even though you had changed so much with the precarious conditions in which you remained in your old training and in the trajectory of the previous three years, there was still this sense of comfort with loved ones around you. It was a sign that there might have been a slight remnant of your former personality from the old days, that enthusiastic and affectionate child, that you were now not even sure was still there.

This mental conflict left you in a very complicated situation, as you could see in your expression in the middle of training with half of your childhood wooden sword, taking advantage of the free time in the interval given to the cadets after a hard session of physical exercises under the supervision of their superiors.

It was ironic that you were taking your free time to keep trying harder than necessary. After all, this was your way of relieving yourself from the problems.

"What will happen from now on? Is it really... Everything will repeat itself as before...?" you murmured to yourself, trying to find some comfort in the words taken from the deepest parts of your mind.

You wished Eren, Armin or even Mikasa were there with you. The three were focused on their own routine activities, preparing for the next day, in which everyone would be facing the harsh reality that they would have to confront the enormous power of the titans again.

Among them, Mikasa was the one most haunted your thoughts. In the last few days she has been very close to you, always being the first to be willing to spend even the shortest amount of time possible at your side, acting quite peculiarly when the two of you were alone. She numb your head with countless breathtaking scenarios just to remember how much her hands seemed to need to get in touch with your body always, distributing those caresses that left you so vulnerable, treating you like a precious jewel in her possession.

Until that day you didn't know what her intentions were for sure. Mikasa was always a very reserved and silent person when it came to feelings, at no time had she given an explanation for acting in this way, neither because just doing this only with you. Your biggest doubt was this, to understand why she treated you like this, with so much preciousness and attention.

Even Eren thought this was strange, because for a long time Mikasa had only remained overprotective about him, no one else. It was like she was changed, those gray eyes of hers just had time for you, and it left you both confused and extremely honored at the same time.

Your wish was to have been able to ask her something about this subject, but courage was always lacking whenever the girl looked at you. She was your weakness, definitely.

Who knew your heart would betray you in that regard...

"Hey, (Y / N)!" a female voice suddenly caught you off guard from the rear, a lively tone could be identified.

Due to the scare, you instinctively turned around in order to hit the person in the head with the impulse already taken with your sword, but stopping inches away from the target when you instantly recognize who it was.