4 Quarters

Chapter 18

As I woke up, I felt near to crap. Why do they have to leave so suddenly? That was my thought.

Today was the day to start school and I woke up especially earlier than everyone else. There were directions on my phone how to get to the school.

I turned on 'now' by trouble maker and started to sing along. I headed up the stairs and started to wash my hair with the shampoo in the bathroom while I was taking a shower.

I changed into a black and white dress. I looked very petite and feminine compared to other days lately.

I got out of the bathroom and went downstairs to eat breakfast. I ate bagels as usual and then started heading towards our neighbor's house.

I knocked on the door firmly. "Yes?" Jackson opened the door and looked me and down.

"Can you just open the door cause I'm not ready for a scolding.. I just want to see that lying theft that I'm supposed to call a sister." I said, trying to get it out of the way.

He just opened the door without saying a word. "Thank you." I said in a way to where I sounded like I wasn't really thankful that I had to see this lying theft.

I turned to look at her and gaged at the scene of my sister hanging around the got7 boys.

"You. Come here." I signaled her to come.

She looked at me and then her 'broken' foot.

"Oh, cut the crap out and come here. You can walk. It's not as bad as what you did to me daily in school or how I get treated now in school." The boys looked at me like I was a monster.

"What? You never saw me before? I'm sure you've heard of me before. From my beloved 'sister'." I said in a sarcastic tone. "Let's walk to school together. Today is the day it starts up again."

I walked over to her and put her arm around my shoulder for support.

After we walked outside of the house, she removed her arm away from my shoulder and grunted.

"What's wrong? I thought you were hurting?" I asked. She just ignored me. "Man, it looks like it's tiring to be an attention whore, such as yourself." I said, continuing to walk toward the school based on the directions I was given.

She just kept walking in silence and I had a satisfied smirk. That wasn't me, and I still felt bad for her, so I still felt guilt deep inside. I went to practice my dancing first since I came to the school early.

I kept messing up, and was finding ways to fix my moves.

Suddenly, I heard a snicker come from outside the room. And it was those three girls.

They were filming me the whole time.

My face flushed red as they ran away. I heard them yelling that they were going to let everyone know about my horrible dancing through SMS.

I sighed and sat down on the ground, drinking some water.

I heard some footsteps as Sandeul opened the door, out of breath. "I was trying to find you. Are you okay?" I just nodded my head and rushed up to get out before he saw me crying.

He followed me as I ran all the way down the hall. The tears wouldn't stop falling. When we entered outside, I made an outburst on him.

"Just leave me alone! It's because of you guys that I couldn't escape my past. All you guys are doing is just making me cry. I should've never went to this school. What'll happen next? Are one of you guys going to die? I can't take if anymore!" I cried hard. I never cried so hard in my life. "Don't say anything! I know what's going on.. And it makes me so sad that it's happening. You guys can't relate with me at all. You have girls hoping on you everyday hopping to be with you. But guess what? They can have both of you. Every single one of you."

I think I regret my words the most. This all slipped out because of my rage and I don't think I'd be able to take it back. I got up and headed back inside.

My eyes turned red as I saw everyone laughing at me in the hallway. Ken went up to me. "What's wrong?" He kept asking.

I just shook my head "nothing." I then went into dance class. I saw Taemin and JHope looking at me.

Taemin had concerned eyes. And for the first time, I payed attention the whole time during class.

After class, Taemin walked up to me and comforted me.

"Thank you, but I'm already okay. I think I should leave early, actually. I don't think I can take this anymore." I said, getting up and getting my tote bag.

He grabbed my arm and looked at me. "You're not going to hurt yourself, are you?" Taemin asked me.

I froze and turned around. "No.. I just need some time to rest." I responded while signing the sheets to leave early.

As I neared the house, I could feel my knees weighing me down and I just stayed on the ground for about ten minutes.

I felt that I was at my lowest point at this time.

What have I done?

I closed my eyes and felt the cold breeze. I began singing 15&'s 'can't hide it' slowly. It made me feel at ease at times like this.

I got up and went to the couch and just layed there. After my nap, Sandeul and Ken were at the house. I could hear them talking, but I couldn't make out what they were saying.

Sandeul went downstairs and saw me awake. I just started straight forward.

"How do you feel right now?" He asked me, putting his hand on my arm.

"I feel like I can die right now." I said, sitting upright.

"You can fall asleep right now. I think you just need rest. You didn't mean those things you said earlier, right? Honestly, at that moment I felt as if I could die." He responded while putting my head on his chest.

I stayed silent and looked at him. "if there was a way.. To run away with you guys, I would. You are.. The one person who relieves my stress. But you also hurt me a lot. It's like I can't stop returning to you. Thank you for being by my side for these last two days with you." I said sincerely.

It's been a long day.

(Omo! So sad! What a contrast to my other book 'Hidden'!!! XD anyways bye I have to stupid and do projects and extra credit... Oh and on 'magnetic' from got7, JB's voice in the chorus is heaven. And so is Ken's when he sang his first line In 'love equation'. All these perfect boys x)