Seven Years (winteam)

seven years

I've been with Hia Win for 7 years,
but everyday, I worry and think about our future.

Everyday I think about him getting married, raising a child of their own and building a happy home just like our friends.
Isn't that the kind of happiness a normal person wants?

I'm jealous. I'm so jealous they have this kind of happiness without worrying much about how other people will look at them.

I wonder if Hia Win and I can also have that kind of happiness...

It makes me anxious, whether our relationship will continue or not.
I know Hia loves me.
He shows and tells me everyday, every minute of the day..
But I can't help thinking about it.

I can't even picture where Hia and I will be a year from now..
Because we're both men..

Argh.. Stop it. Love is for everyone. Stop overthinking, Team. Hia loves you.

I looked at Hia who is busy playing.

"Hia."

"Hmm?"

He didn't even look. "How does it feel to be with a woman?"

Now he looked at me. "What are you talking about?" Hia furrowed his eyebrows.

"I just want to know."

"Stop it, Team."

"Just answer, Hia."

"..."

Why are you taking so long to answer Hia..

"I've already forgotten about that, ever since I admitted my feelings for you 7 years ago, Team."

"..."

Now I'm the one who got silent.

"I know I'm bi, but I will never cheat on you. That's my past self.
The present me has only you in my heart."

That's good to know..
but..

"Hia, that's too cheesy."

"You're the one asking it! I'm just answering so you won't think too much! Hmmp!"

"Hahahaha! It's because I want to hear it from you that's why."

Laughter filled our apartment again. The genuine happiness, can we experience this for a long time..?

"Hia.. I love you."

"I love you more."

We are free to love, huh?
That freedom.. Same sex couples doesn't have that at all..
We will be seen as weird, as abnormal, if they see us holding hands.

Hia Win's hands are so big.
The ring on his left ring finger looks small.
Yeah.. My hands and Hia Win's hands were made to protect a woman.

"Why are you so silent? You've been acting weird for the past 2 weeks now.
What's wrong?" Hia must've noticed.

"Nothing." I plainly answered while still looking outside the window.

"I won't know what you're thinking unless you tell me."

"... Hia."

"..." Why are you staring at me like that..