It's hard to forget

8.Her Mom

Samy's POV :

She came and sat beside me. This can't be right. For the past 2 years, this girl has been running away from me. But now she came herself instead of running away. And I can see that her mind is running again. I hope this time it won't cause any more trouble for her than before.

"You okay??" I asked her making sure to notice her facial expressions as she can fool anyone with her words but her face shows all her feelings as if it is a mirror.

"Me? Okay? You know the answer to that question better than anyone else. " She said without turning towards me. Her focus is on the beautiful sight in front of her.

After what felt like a thousand years she spoke again " I like this place. I am getting different types of ideas in this place you know?"

Ideas??? Wow, this can't go well.

"What sort of ideas angel? " I asked. She knows that I want to know what her little devil mind is thinking about.

" Why are Shres and Saira not looking for you? " She asked diverting this topic. She was wondering about my relationship with Saira.

" Because I am not missing, angel. I am here only but a little away from them. That's all. Why will they look for me as if I went somewhere else? " I asked as if it's madness to search for your boyfriend when he is a few feet away from you.

" I will search for you, you know? If I can't see you anywhere near my eyesight, I usually panic and start searching for you every damn single time when we were together." She said with her face down and her fingers playing with the edge of her dress.

She talked about the past. Our past which she never did in all these years. But that's true. She used to search for me. We both are pretty inseparable always and I love that about us.

" I know angel. And I never left your presence also. There was never a need for you to search for me when we were together and even now you don't have to search for me anytime. Because I will always be in your eyesight. Always..." I mean every damn word I said.

" You left me. You left me one time when I needed you the most. You left me to be with someone else knowing how much I am hurting and knowing how much your being with her hurts me." She said with a shaky voice and I know pretty damn well that she is about to cry. Again.. these past years she has been crying a lot and I very well know that I am the reason for that and I hate myself for that.

"You know I used to think that whenever something bad happened to me, you would come and shield me from that and make all my worries go away. I used to think that you were my version of superhero. After all, I left my dad for you " she continued in her weepy tone. Still, her face was down as if she was afraid to face me during this confession time.

I didn't reply. I don't know what to reply. I can tell her the truth. My version of truth but I can't. That will break her heart more. She will be shattered and she won't be able to forgive her friend after knowing that. So yeah. I stayed silent like always.

" Nothing felt more important to me than you... Not even me. My life.. my dad ... My friends... My dance .. nothing... You are always my first preference..." She wiped her eyes and I know that stupid tears are falling again on her cheeks which I used to kiss like hell a few years ago.

" You know what I love most? " She asked and this time she turned to face me. Her cheeks are red and pinkish and her eyes are watery and her hair is pretty much messed up because of the wind.

" Your mom.." I answered as I knew that was the correct answer. She loves her mom more than anything in her life. And she loves me after that and I am not going to say my name after what I have done to her..

" You bastard. !" She said but she laughed too at my answer. Wiping her tears away from her face she smiled and that brought a smile to my face. I love seeing her smile.

" How the hell do you still manage to break my tears and make me smile?? " She said shaking her head and laughing some more.

" Yeah.. you are right. I love my mom and you know why I love her that much? " She asked and turned completely towards me as she wanted my undivided attention for her.

I shook my head no even though I knew the answer to that question. I want her to explain what's on her mind. This is the first real conversation in 2 years without me trying to force her to stay with me for more than 5 minutes.

" You know the answer. You know pretty much everything about me. And that's the main reason I hate you for what you did as you know how much that will affect me." She said again wiping some more tears and continued "It's because she was always with me. Even after their divorce she never left me. She even made me love dance. And you know what she loved the most?" She asked again making me feel like I was in some interview.

I shook my head again as this time I didn't know what her mother loved. I guess it's dance .. or maybe she loved her daughter more. I am not sure what is the correct answer. So I remained silent.

" You!!" She said and that made me turn my face as if someone threw ice on me. Seeing my startled expression she laughed. She did not smile but laughed wholeheartedly and that made me smile again even though I am still shocked.

" Yeah. I am not kidding.. she loves you.. she used to tell me how much she loved you every single damn time. She loved how you took care of her daughter, how you made sure I ate well and you made me happy every single day. " She explained touching the tattoo that is there on her wrist as if she is remembering her mother's last days.

"She used to tell me that even though my dad didn't understand me or my dreams, you will understand them and help me in all ways possible. I used to smile and leave at that. I never told her that I left my dancing because of you but I think she knows that." She said looking into my eyes.

I nodded in acknowledgment as I knew that her mother knew about everything. " She knows," I said after what felt like an eternity. " And she loves you the most, not me. Why because she knows that I am the person who made her daughter leave her only dream. I know she didn't like that one bit." I said trying to explain to her my version of her mother.

" But I remember her saying that all is well as I am there for you. With or without dancing you will be happy as long as I am with you... That's what she told me when I told her that you left dancing for life." I said to her as I didn't tell her this ever before.

Wind blew hard making her hair move and fall on her face covering her eyes and forehead. As her eyes are wet because of tears her hair gets stuck to them making her look like a cute little puppy.

I moved my hands and removed her hair from her eyes without making her startle. I slowly moved a little closer and kissed one of her eyes. She closed both her eyelids as if asking me to kiss her second eye which I did willingly.

Author's note:: Hello people...I have tried writing this chapter from Samy's POV... hope you guys like this... Thanks for supporting me and liking my book...