Kaisoo: Unattainable Love

10: The Notes

Kyungsoo's POV
The flow of the notes only increased, as did the seriousness of their content. They'd say things like 'You don't deserve to live' or 'Go drink bleach.' They were horrid, but I continued to push them off.

I repeatedly told myself I didn't care though I knew somewhere deep inside of me, they hurt me. To know someone hated me so much they wished me off the face of the planet, hurt me. Which was something I'd never let things do to me in my past.

Ever since my parents had left me I'd never let things bother me or hurt me. I always told myself that I didn't need another emotional scar, because the ones my parents had left were enough. And no one liked a man covered in scars.

I'd built walls around myself to protect myself from hurt, but those walls were ever so slowly being torn away.

Kai didn't know about the notes, because I refused to tell him. If he knew he'd make some issue out of it and that was the last thing I wanted, for Kai to worry.

I didn't like having people worry about me all the time, it made me feel bad to make them worry. But it's just Kai's way of showing he cares I suppose.

There was also something new I'd discovered about Kai lately, he was a jealous little bastard.

The other day I stayed an extra 5 minutes in chemistry to finish up a lab, and when he saw me in there with another guy, just the two of us, he was practically seething with rage. But let me tell you, it's so damn cute.

It happens whenever I'm around any other guy that isn't a close friend actually. He just kinda glares at them a bit, holds me a little tighter. He acts as if everyone in the damned school doesn't know about us, which they do, they definitely do. I mean how could they not notice it when Kai always has an arm slung around me, a hand over mine, or is pulling me to his lap, which, for the record, still makes me blush like a tomato.

But I don't mind his jealousy, because it just shows that he cares, and he's cute when he's mad.

Life continued in harmony with Kai by my side, and it was lovely. Everything was absolutely lovely.

Before something peculiar began to occur.

The first thing that started happening was me getting hurt. Whether it was being tripped by a classmate, or taking an intentionally thrown football to the head in gym class, it seemed there was this small group of guys just waiting for me to be out of Kai's view to hurt me.

I'd always just go and clean myself up, and if Kai noticed a bandage, I'd say I tripped, no big deal.

But it progressively got worse. From my arm 'accidentally' being twisted back, to being just downright shoved. But whenever it happened the person who'd done it was out of my sight within a second. But I had a feeling it was just those three assholes again.

I don't know why they'd hated me so much, I mean I'd never done anything to them, nothing at all. Was I just an easy target? I supposed so. I'd just made myself believe that, because it was easier to believe than telling myself that I was just a hatable person.

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Another week passed by, and I was bruised all over. Not nearly as bad as when I'd been getting beaten up though, and for that I was thankful. It was a lovely Friday afternoon, and I walked out of the school, Baekhyun by my side.

We chatted awhile before he went to walk home. Chanyeol always seemed to walk him home now.. Very interesting..

I waited until I saw Kai emerge from the building, a smile on his face.

"Hey," He said with a big smile, leaving a peck to my nose.

"Hi Kai, ready to go?" I said, tilting my head a bit.