Can't Think Straight

You're back!

I quickly turn my head around.

"Ken?..Ken!!" I let out, I get up and hug him. "Hey Kio" He says hugging me back. Kento Yamamo, He is one of my childhood friends, when I first came out. I met him at the park.

[ Dec, 24 | 11:55 ] [7 years ago]

As the cold snow falls on my bruised body coved in thick pants and jackets, I sit on the swings and still shiver. "Hey, it's pretty cold out here..." I look up to see another boy that looks the same age as me. "Its fine." I say looking back down. "It's almost Christmas... are you not going home?.." He says while sitting down in the swing next to me.

"Why are you talking to me." I say while looking at him. "You never want to spend Christmas alone." He says with a smile, suddenly I stopped shivering. "I'm Kento, Kento Yamamoto." He says holding out his hand. "Im... Kioshi, Kioshi Ito." I say while he shakes my hand. "Merry Christmas, Kio."

[Back to present tense]

"Its been about... 3 years since I left?" He says. "Mhm! It took you forever to get back..." I say with a frown. Kento was the only I truly felt comfortable with. He's also the first person I came out to. The reason for that is... he was my first love.

I don't feel anything for Kento now, but I still care very much about him. "Sorry for making you wait Kio, you still holding up well?" He says while patting my head. "yeah... i'm actually doing really good ken. I want you to meet someone, shes someone I can trust now." I say while giving him a little smile. "Good! I cant wait to meet her. I interrupted you while you were eating, you can continue." I hand him a sandwich and finish mine up.

"Kioshi... who's your friend."

I look up to see Haru standing there with an annoyed face holding two milks. "...Haru?!" I let out turning pink. "You know Kio?" Kento says with a smile. "Kio?.." Haru says almost glaring. "Yeah! Kio, I didn't know you had a friend!"

Kento says patting my head. "Ken! Jeez... you're reading to much int-" "Heres a milk, Kioshi." Haru says interrupting me while holding out a milk. "T-Thanks... Haru." I say while looking away to hide my face. "Let me taste, Kio!" Kento says while reaching for the milk I'm holding.

Haru blocks him and hands him the other milk in his hand. "Here... take mine." He says coldly. why is he acting so different... "Oh... thanks, Jaru?.." Kento says while taking the milk. "Its Haru." He says while sitting down. ~So... tense.~ "So... Haru why did you end up coming here?" I say while locking eyes with him.

"I wanted to see you, thats all."

My face turns red. "I...well, okay." I somehow was able to spit out. He means as a friend dumbass... I think as I stare at him looking at his food he brought. "Hey Kioshi, did you draw this?" Haru words snapped me out of it. "Yeah... I just started so its no-" "Its incredible, Kioshi." He says with a bright smile. Why does me make me feel like this?

He's obviously straight... so why do I want to keep trying with him. "Thank you, Haru." I say giving him a warm smile. He suddenly looks at me surprised "Kioshi, you have a great smile..." He says hiding his face. I look at him, kind of shocked. "Oh...I-" "Ah, sorry that was weird to say." Haru says cutting me off, quickly picking up his stuff. I didnt find it weird, it was quite nice. "I outta go now, ill see you after classes, Kioshi." He says with a smile. I wave bye as I try to stay calm from being flustered.

"Whats with him?.." Kento says with food in his mouth. "I dunno..." I say as my mind blanks out again. Why can't I think striaght when I have a conversation with him... Its so irritating.

Me and Kento start talking again to catch up, then the bell rings. "Ah shoot we're gonna be late!" I say frantically. We quickly pick our stuff and start jogging to class. "Ill see you later, Ken!" I say as I walk into my class. I look back to see him waving.

Class ends and I walk out of the room. "Kiooo!" I turn and I say Kento waving me over to him. "You always pop out of no where." I say acting annoyed. He looks and me and smiles "You've really changed Kio." He says, warmly smiling at me.

"None-sense." I say with a pout. "Who's this?" I swiftly turn around to see Mona. "Mona! How was lunch with Asher?" I say with a grin. She pinches my ear quickly "Im not telling you shit until you tell me what happened last night." She says huffing.

"Another friend?" Kento says quietly interrupting our conversation. "Oh right! This was my close friend I was talking about." I say while pointing at her. She smacks my hand down and smiles at Kento "Im Mona, his best friend, you are?" He chuckles and shakes her hand "Kento, also his best friend." She pulls away "mhm." Shes says playfully, but cold.

"So, Mona... you dating anyo-" "Alright thats where I step in!" I say flicking his forehead. "Ouch!" He says rubbing the pain. "I thought you stopped being a playboy, your not gonna be dragging my best friend into your little shenanigans!" I say jokingly. "Hah! Kioshi admitted it!" Mona says laughing, then we all start chuckling.

"Hey Kioshi, Mona and you." Haru says getting right behind me, with a cold smile. Asher follows behind him, lightly grabbing Monas arm to pull her closer to him. She turns pink, flustered. "Ah hello! We meet again." Kento says in a friendly tone. "Im afraid I haven't meet you yet?" He says looking over to Asher.

Asher introduced himself and they get to know each other. I turn around and look up to see Haru looking uninterested, I poke his chin to get his attention since i'm shorter. "Are you okay?" I say getting pretty close. He looks at me then smiles softly

"Im fine, thanks Kioshi." He says whispering in my ear. Flustered, I turn red and pull away from him. What the hell was that?...