misunderstood: mattheo riddle 🥀

8. HIS HAPPINESS,HER SADNESS

random song i love! the neighbourhood: you get me so high. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 also happy pride month to all of you!

mattheos pov:

the class was pretty boring, but i wasn't really paying attention. that's because she was next to me. i watched every little cute movement, she was adorable. after a bit she fell asleep, if she was that scared of me she wouldn't have fallen asleep, you've got to be comfortable for that. maybe she is less scared like everyone else.. she might understand. but i won't get my hopes up. we all know how my luck in life goes.

"Y/N" snape shouts, her head shoots up as she looks at the professor
he was looking for the answer from her, she clearly didn't know as she was asleep. i'm quite clever, that's why i never needed to listen in class. i already knew it all, i had the answer. i wanted to know how comfortable she was with having me there next to her.. so i move closer to her ear and whisper quietly
"nothing. the answer is nothing"
she looked toward me, no other movements, nor emotions. i couldn't really detect how she was feeling.

"uh nothing sir" she listened to me... it was only an answer to a question but she still listened to me, i'd never had anyone take interest in what i have to say.. that's why i kept quiet since i'd been in school, there was no use in trying, but i get joy this time, over such a little thing. i could feel my cheeks flush pink so i turn away, i smile lightly..

after that class finished quickly, everyone avoided me and moved away. but she didn't, since earlier she decided to trip on someone's book i wanted to mention something. maybe talk to her more. i clear my throat and say
"make sure you don't trip" i didn't mean to plaster a smile on my face, she turns around and shoots me a smile.. a gorgeous, beautiful smile. the butterflies in my stomach, churning around. rapidly, i felt so happy.

she wasn't scared like the others. maybe it's because she isn't like any other...

i had a few other classes. but she wasn't in them, so i didn't really feel like going, i'd much rather be in my room thinking about her, maybe my luck wasn't so bad for today. i run back to my door and jumped onto my bed. i wanted to scream and have a fit because i was so happy. but i decided to contain it, because i need it, everyone needs happiness. even me...

back to y/ns pov:

after my other classes i was in quite a good mood, i sat by all my friends and we had laughs, but once they were over.. i realised i hadn't really gone anywhere around school.i wanted to see the night sky, and the astronomy tower seems like a great place to chill out. it was quite dark out already,

i have a shower, dry and curl my hair. pick out some warmer clothes as it will be colder. i need to go before it's after curfew, but after getting ready it was already an our later, so i head off..

i got a little lost but i found my way there, i sit on the edge. with my feet dangling in the cold air. i look up into the night sky. the air whistling through the dark trees and the star's twinkled over me. i sigh, what a great place to be.

before any thing else happens, an owl with a letter on its foot arrives next to me, it drops the letter and flies off into the distance.
on the front it writes.

y/n,

it's your father, i hope your doing great at school. which i know you are... i didn't want to take you out of school and i'm sorry to tell you through a letter and not in person, but i know you'd need to be focused on something.. i don't really know how to write this, mother died 3 days ago... we were meaning to tell you that she actually was pregnant.                                (damn double homicide) and you were going to have a baby sister, but we never got the chance.. but we both have to move on and accept that's what life is like. soon there will be a three week break for the students, you don't have to but i'd like to to visit me... your head master has let you off classes for a while if you want. sorry once again, i wouldn't like to go into details about her death. i'm sorry, i love you

sincerely. dad x

i was in tears, sobbing so much the paper. started to thin and become more fragile i fold it and put it in my pocket so i can keep it and write back to him. someone is going to hear me, so i go back to my dorm. i don't take my makeup off. i just out pjamas on and lay in bed, wide awake. in utter shock of what i just read.

she's dead. my mother is dead,

thinking about it made it a lot worse. i never wanted my parents to die, i know it would've happened one day but not now, and she was pregnant. i can't believe it.

what happened to her? how did she die? where was she? was she ill? was it murder? i cried into my pillow, until i drowned in my tears and passed out.

the next morning

i woke up feeling sick to my stomach, i needed breakfast even though i didn't feel like eating. i guess i need to move on. it's going to be difficult, my mum always told me talking to your friends and family make hard situations a lot better. it was breakfast time..

i throw on a hoodie and jeans and head out to the great hall, mascara dripping down my face. i hope this makes things better, they are good friends they will listen.

they automatically see me and walk over to me. all asking me if i'm okay.

"yeah i'm fine- no i'm not" i start crying again. hermione runs my back
"what's wrong y/n you can talk to us" she assured me.
"W-well um, i was out walking around and i got this um letter from- my dad.. and."
"and?"  they all say
"my mum is dead" i whimper trying not to cry.
they all look at me in shock.

"y/n.. why would you say that?!"
"w-what?" i say confused
"you can't complain! infront of harry. do you know what he's been through!"
i just stand there in shock.. confused, this wasn't how i thought it would be. i just wanted to talk about it, to get it off my chest.

"stop attention seeking, your life couldn't be as bad as harry's" ginny claims.
i can't speak. or breathe. i just turn around and run away. wherever. this is not how it was supposed to go. today is the worst day of my life,
as i'm running tears fill my eyes, i can't see where i'm going, all of a sudden i bump into something... someone,
"we really need to stop meeting like this." he chuckles,picks me up so i stand, he looks at me. clearly seeing i was crying,
"wait what's wrong?" i'm not doing this again,
"nothing leave me alone" i sniffle.
i try walk away but he grabs my hips gently pulling me back facing with him...

"are you okay?"
those three words had the best of me, the fried and tears i kept holding in burst out. my lip quivered as i shut my eyes, his hands held my back, one moving up and down warmly.
"shhh, talk to me. i don't want you to be sad" he hugs me. i cry into his chest. it was what i needed right now. i hug him back, sobbing into his white t-shirt...

hiiii! i ruined the moment with the double homicide joke, but you gotta do what you gotta do, if you like don't forget to vote. i hope my story is liked by all of you! 💅🏻💫🌺