Kidnapped 15+

The heart speaks-10

He took my hand and helped me to get up. He held my hand as we walked inside. We passed the boys in the hall. They all gave me a weird look, but didn't say anything. Harry opened the door to my room and told me to sit on the bed, while he closed the window.  

He then walked over to the door and looked at the other boys that still stood in the hall, "You can go now, I'll come out in a few mins." he said and closed the door and walked over to the bed, and sat beside me. 

"Can you please repeat what you said out there?" he looked at me with a serious face expression but a smile in his eyes. 

"Nothing, forget it." I whispered. I was so dumb. Why did I need to say to people that I loved them? Stupid feelings.  

He sighed, "Emily, we both know what you said." he looked at me but didn't say anything. I closed my eyes and lay on the bed. I've made a mistake.  

He lay beside me; "Is it true what you said? Did you mean it?" he whispered the words in my ear. I nodded. Cause I did. I did mean it.  

He turned around so he lay on his side. "Emily.." I turned to lay on my side too, and looked into his beautiful blue/green eyes. 

"Yes?"  

"I think...I think I love you too." he said it with a voice I've never heard before. I sat up. 

"Shit." I sighed and rested my head in my hands.  

"What's wrong?" He sounded confused. I understood him. I would have been too. First I said to him that I loved him, and then when he told me that he loved me to, I cursed.  

"It just..." I sighed once again. "It isn't supposed to be like this. I'm not supposed to fall in love with you, and you aren't supposed to fall in love with me. It's...it's just wrong."  

He didn't say anything. He just sat up and looked at me. His eyes were filled with sadness. I was torn. I was torn, what am I going to do? I love both boys, but I can't love both boys. It shouldn't be like that. I wished I had a SOS button to my heart and if I pressed it, it just deleted all my feelings for everyone I ever had. Everyone. Including myself.  

But I couldn't. I could try, but I couldn't do it.  

"Why is it so wrong to be with me?" he sounded hurt. 

"It isn't it's just...it's..." should I tell him? Should I tell him about me and Niall? Should I tell that I shared the feelings I had for him with Niall? Should I tell or should I just keep my mouth shout? What would be the best?  

The truth.

The truth is always the best, but also the one that hurts the most. "Harry I lo...." I regret. I regretted that I started saying it, so I changed the topic as fast as possible. "It's just. What about the other boys? How are we going to tell them, and how are they going to react?" I tried to make him agree with me. I wanted him to not want the other boys to know that I liked him. I looked at my wrist. I looked at the cuts. The wounds. 

"Don't worry. I'll take care of that." he said and stood up. He walked over to the door and held his one hand on the doorknob and looked at me.  

"But Harry...I..-" I didn't want him to say it. What about Niall? What about him? What would he think of me if he heard that I told Harry that I loved him. - and what would Harry think if he found out that I've told the same to Niall? 

How will Harry react if he knew that I had sex with Niall?  

"Don't worry babe, I'll tell them." he said when he saw my worried face  expression. I wanted to stop him. He just couldn't tell them!  

He opened the door and yelled in the hall; "I love Emily, and she l..." 

"Harry stop!" I ran over to him and pulled him inside and rested my back against the door. "What the hell are you thinking?" I whispered in anger. 

"Well I'm telling them..I don't want any of them to flirt with you, so I want to make things clear. Cause lou is the only one in a relationship in this house." he said and winked.

"Yes, and I want it to stay like that. I don't want to be in a relationship with you, I want to be with a relation ship wit..." I putted my hand on my mouth before I could finish the sentence. Was this my heart speaking for me? Telling me what I want to know?  

"with who?"