Kidnapped 15+

Harry vs Niall-11

HARRYS POV

"Yes and I want it to stay like that. I don't want to be in a relationship with you, I want to be in a  relationship wit.." she putted her hand on her mouth before she could finish the sentence. What was she talking about? 

"With who?" my voice was calm but I was dying on the inside. Was there someone else? "I thought you said you loved me. " 

"I did." 

", but  did you mean it?" I raised one eyebrow as she nodded to the question. "But how can you then not want to be with me?" 

She sighed a long and loud sigh and placed her head in her hands. "It's just..." she looked up and me, and then sighed once again. "It's just wrong. I can't be with you. It's wrong." she sighed again and gave me the 'do-you-understand-what-i-just-said-or?' look.  

"Emily...what's so wrong with being with me? If you love me then what is the big problem?"  

"I don't know."

I was wondering how it was possible for her not to know it. I knew that love was very complicated and could be the worst enemy some times, but how can you not know who you love? 

"Then answer this question; Who is the other one?" she looked down. She didn't even glance me. "Emily, I'm serious. Is it someone you've known for a long time?"  

"No but it feels like we've known each other for a life time."  

I knew exactly how she felt, but I wanted to hear more; "Tell me about it. Tell me how you fell."  

"Well, even though we haven't know each other for a long time, it feels like we've know each other for a life time. He makes me feel special and makes me feel loved. There's something about him I can't explain that makes me crazy about him. There's this one thing that makes me want him so bad, but I still have no clue what it is. His personality is amazing and he makes me feel comfortable every time I'm with him. - I love him. I really do." 

Wow. 

Everything she said it, it..."It's exactly how I feel about you." I whispered to her and took her hand.  

She looked sad. Like I've hurt her. "But...if I'm so badly in love with him, then why am I also in love with you?" I shook my head, 

"I wish I knew. I've had the same problem before." I could easily remember it. It was one of the hardest time of my life. Mostly because I hurt myself.

"But what did you do then? How did you choose?" she looked up at me, and down on her hand that were in mine. She turned it around. She let her fingers dance on the cuts she had made. It hurt and killed me that she could do something like that to herself. I looked her in her eyes, and knew that what I was about to say to her would kill her just as much as it killed me, back then. 

"What I did? I forgot both of them. Moved on. It was a bit difficult, but I needed to do it." 

The memory slowly flew back into my head. 

I could remember days without talking, weeks without leaving my room because of the pain it caused me. It may not sound that hard. But when you truly fall in love with someone and the feelings starts to grow and gives you that amazing feeling in your stomach, that even butterflies can't make - THATS when it gets painful. 

Cause you can't just leave a love like that, because you know how hard it is to find one like that. - or it isn't. It isn't hard to find someone you love, it's hard to find someone who loves you back. 

"But....I can't when you're both in the house with me all day." when she realized what she said, her eyes got big and a gasp escaped her mouth. 

"So we're both in the house with you?" I knew immediately who it was.