i want to rip out my trachea from my throat
i want to stab my still beating heart and hear it die with a slow badump badump badump
i want to fry my lungs until smoke comes out my mouth
i want my stomach to turn inside out so i can't eat anymore junk
i want my uterus to prolapse and dry up like a weed
i want go through some intense plastic surgery
i want to fix my face
i want to remove these things on my chest that remind me everyday that i will never be looked at as a boy ever ever
i want every part of my disgusting self to be replaced
until nothing of myself remains
maybe after all that i'll feel better
