Lost Like You- ON HOLD

🖤Chapter 4🖤

⚠️𝐓𝐰: 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐧𝐢𝐚, 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝⚠️

Caspian's pov

With Adira in my arms I softly rubbed her back until she fell asleep. In my arms I pretty much held her life in my hands, if I wanted to I could really just grab the dagger and kill her if I wanted to, I may have a cold-heart but I already have feelings for her and most of those aren't hatred. I guess she's even a little bit cute with her eyes lightly fluttering while she sleeps.

I wish I could sleep but I can't, I'm an insomniac but I'm used to it. It's about 4 which for some people is early and they're getting up and some people are like me and can't sleep either. I've tried most things already, asmr, lowering the temperature, yoga, everything. I even tried sleeping pills for a while and they worked better than most things but I still had to take a bunch which wasn't healthy or good for my body.

Usually if I couldn't sleep I'd go and find some work to do in my office but since Adira is tucked tightly into me I don't want to leave her alone. After about another hour left in my thoughts I was finally able to fall into sleep but that type of sleep where you keep waking up every twenty minutes or so.

Soon enough morning came and Adira woke up. "You're a pretty cute sight to wake up to" I say, my morning voice cracking halfway through my sentence. "Yeah I know. I guess you're an okay sight" she sighs, her voice raspy as she hasn't really had time to wake up yet.

"Do you want some coffee we're going to be flying somewhere later?" I ask getting up to make myself some coffee. "Ya sure can I have it iced with milk. Where are we going and why do I have to go with you?" She asks while getting up and putting my hoodie back on.

"I'll get you the coffee but I'm not telling you where we are going, I want it to be a suprise but you're coming with me because you wanted to bond with your fiance, didn't you?" I pull her into the elevator with me. "I'm going to pack clothes for you once we get back to the hotel. Is that okay?" I ask picking her up and hugging her while she sits against the railing.

(𝐈𝐝𝐤 𝐢𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭)

The elevator dings alerting us the we reached the main floor. We walk out into the large,open kitchen. Although I am rich and have enough money to just get my own mansion I think this penthouse is already super big, at least for right now. Maybe later if Adira gets pregnant or wants to move to somewhere bigger we will.

Why did I just imagine getting her pregnant, I mean we would make gorgeous kids and I would love to have kids she's probably not even ready, she just turned 19 that's too young, right? I'm not sure but I know that if she does get pregnant and wants to keep the baby I'm all for it. I'd be an awesome dad, way better than my father ever was.

I turn on the coffee machine starting to brew our coffees. I make hers first as it needs to get to at least room temperature before I add ice then I move on to make my own. I like my coffee just plain black so mine finishes quickly and by that time I finish making her coffee and got out some ingredients to make some pancakes.

I finish making the pancakes and set them down on a plate for Adira then pass her coffee and put out toppings for the pancakes. She looks at the pancakes for a couple seconds, grabbing he coffee and taking a sip "The coffee is good thank you." She says quietly also like she's trying to hide something. "Do you not like pancakes? Sorry I should've asked first." I stammer awkwardly not knowing what to do.