My Life

I am tired.

I am tired both emotionally, & spiritually. I have been for the past 2 years & the exhaustion has been getting worse. I have been suffering a lot. Yet its hard for those who rn't transgender or stuck in the wrong body to understand. Everytime I look down I hate what I see because I am not a girl I am a guy. And I have hated looking down at my body. It hurts so badly. I have just found out that no doctor will give me a full hysterectomy simply because of my age & that really pisses me off & also really upsets me because that is taking away my right to be myself & I hate that so much. I want to be the man that I know I am. But it seems like I can't even be myself here in this so called free country. Sighs deeply. And also at the moment I am having suicidal feelings, & thoughts I still won't kill myself because then I would leave my other half, my soulmate all alone & I can't do that to him. But I just wish my rights to transition & be myself weren't controlled by assholes who think they can make decisions for me. Man I hate how my rights r being taken from me. It pisses me off so badly. Who the hell do they think they r to make decisions for me when I am an adult?! Sighs deeply again. I recently adopted a beautiful little black kitten & I love her so much already. But I am suffering & what can make my pain go away is being stopped by those who have taken away my rights to be myself & who make decisions for me when am more than capable of making my own decisions. So thanks to them I will continue to suffer until I am over 35 years old or 40. Then maybe I could get a hysterectomy then. I can't even be myself until I am middle age. No doctor will give me a full hysterectomy anywhere in this so called free country. I am so damn tired spiritually & emotionally. So damn tired of being around others & having a fake smile on my face. Having to hide everything. And so help me if any & I MEAN ANY HATERS COMMENT ANYTHING HORRIBLE I WILL REPORT UR ASS & MUTE U!!!!!! I am NOT in the mood for any haters to comment shit on my story. Remember I warned u haters. U want to comment & say shit on my story. U better be prepared for the consequences. And I am not the one u want to piss off right now. Just because I am depressed & tired emotionally & spiritually doesn't mean I am going to let u be a piece of shit & comment on my story. U want to be a pathetic excuse of a human & say mean shit on my story then u will feel my wrath. I am no pushover. I will not let u or anyone else walk all over me. So don't say I didn't warn ur asses. Now then. Sighs deeply once more. I am not the type to just let someone talk shit about me or my soulmate or my family or friends. Those who know me know that. But they also know what I am dealing with & r there for me. And I want to thank
Traviler1969
SerenityDivine13

And others I can't remember off the top of my head for being there for me