The Story Beneath The Shirt

I Love You... Dakotas POV

THIS WILL BE DAKOTA'S POV OF EVERYTHING FROM WHEN MAX RAN OUT THERE WILL BE THE SCENE OF MAX'S ATTEMPT ON SUICIDE SO IF THAT WILL BOTHER YOU PLEASE SKIP I WILL PUT A LESS DETAILED RECAP ON THE NEXT CHAPTER! I ALSO WANT TO PUT THE SUICIDE HOTLINE NUMBER FOR ANYONE WHO NEEDS IT. PLEASE CALL THEM IF YOU EVER NEED TO : 1-(800)-273-8255

I had been thinking of max since he left. I felt so bad for making him feel like a lesser person that what he really was. Maybe I can go see him tomorrow. I kept calling and texting. I just wanted to know he was okay for the night. I eventually gave up, ill go over there tomorrow if I need to.

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When I went over there it was 7pm. I had football practice today. But when i got there his brother answered the door, his face immediately went sour. "Yes dakota." His voice stern. "I came to apologize to max. I don't hate him I promise. It just scared me because I've only dated guys who were born as boys. I never really met someone who changed their gender, let alone, kissed one. So it was just a surprise. I do love Max. I do. And I just need to talk to him. 30 minutes is all I'm asking for." I pleaded, I had to make sure he was okay and make up for what I did.

"Fine. I haven't checked on him but the butler said he's up early this morning. I've been working on papers that needed reviewed last week." He said, "and I'm sure you know where the room is but the butler can show you the way." The butler reminded me what doors and how many down. I thanked him that way while he went through some other doors. When i got up there i knocked, no answer. I cracked it and called out his name, still no answer. When i opened the door I didn't see him in there. I checked his closet and then went to the bathroom and knocked. I called his name and there was no answer. When i opened the door i got the shock of my life... max was on the floor. A razor in one hand and blood dripped all over the floor. I immediately felt for a pulse. It was faint. "NATHAN! NATHAN MAX NEEDS HELP PLEASE HE'S BLEEDING OUT!" I screamed as i reached in my pocket and called an ambulance. Nathan was freaking out so bad I immediately kept checking his pulse. When i heard the sirens i picked max up. I didn't care about my shirt Max needed me. I rushed out there before they could even open the back doors. I they jumped in and I handed his body over and hopped in. Nathan said he would be there when he could and that if max came to to call. They shut the doors and turned the sirens on and immediately drove off to the emergency health care rooms. When we got there they pulled he needles from his vitals out and rushed him through i ran to open doors and called people to move. Once we got to the main double doors they told me i wasn't allowed back until later. I nurse came out and showed me to where i could sit and when they would call me back. They asked for information on max and contact information. I gave them my number as a second emergency contact since they needed one if they couldn't reach nathan.

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I sat there since we got here I was so hungry but I didn't want to leave. My phone also died I hadn't really seen a charging port and I didn't want to go find one somewhere just In case they needed me or I didn't want to leave it somewhere so someone didn't walk off with it. I don't have a lot of money as it is to repay for one. Well i mean technically I had 4,000 in the bank and 500 on me in my wallet but that's for emergencies and things that are super important. I ask told the nurse I would come back in a bit I just needed to walk around a bit since I felt stiff. She said okay and handed me a watch that would buzz when i was needed. I thanked her and started walking around the hospital. I needed to stretch my legs and get them working again, they had started to fall asleep. I stepped out and walked around back, they had a beautiful fountain and the autumn leaves where falling down. It was almost thanksgiving. I hoped that max would come around. If he does i was going to see if Nathan and Max wanted to come to our thanksgiving this year. 

I sat down on the bench and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. I know i shouldnt be smoking but i needed the stress relieve. I started taking hits and ashing in the grass. I pulled out my phone to check the time to realize it was still dead. I wish i had my charger, my mom is probably worried sick. ill call her off one of the hospital phones when i get back in.

getting down to the end of the cigarette i stomped it out and put it in my pack. i didnt believe in littering. it was wrong and i didnt want some bird or small critter to pick it up thinking it was food and choking on it. I decided to go back in and give the watch back to the nurse.

"could i use your phones? i need to contact my parents but my phone is dead." i asked showing her my dead phone screen. she accepted and told me to press nine before the area code to dial out. I thanked her and dialed my moms number. i sat in the patient check in chair while it rang.

"Hello?" I could here my dad in the back talking on the phone, i heard him ask my name.

"Hey mom, its dakota." i said smiling glad to know that they loved me enough to search for me.

"OMG DAKOTA?! Where are you sweetheart," you could hear my dad ask if it was me, "yes its dakota. sweety where are you we've been worried sick." i could hear the worry in her voice.

"Im okay mom. max had been badly hurt im at the hospital waiting for him to wake up." i started choking up knowing it was my fault, how could he ever forgive me after I brought him to do this to himself.

"Oh honey, please call us next time. ive been calling your phone but it went straight to voicemail. I thought you had been kidnapped. Sissy has been worried sick too she's crying for you." she replied and indeed you could hear her soft whimpers and dad soothing her telling her I was okay, that momma was talking to me right now. 

"Put her on the phone ill talk to her." i said feeling sad that i made her feel this way. you could hear shuffling and then her soft voice.

"Hello?" she whimpered out.

"Hey sissy, its bubby. im okay, im with a friend right now. he's not feeling well so im taking care of him. remember when your tummy hurt so i made you that yummy soup and built us a fort to watch movies in while we was in the living room at our old house?" i said smiling at the memories.

"Yea, it made me feel better." she said sniffling and you could hear the smile on her face.

"Well im doing that for him so that he feels better. But i need you to cheer up so he gets better because he needs happiness to cheer him. if you cheer up the feel good fairy will help him feel better as he sleeps like the fairy did to you. Can you do that sissy?" i ask smiling at how innocent she was.

"yes bubby." you could hear her smiling

"Alright well i got to get off her so i can help him. I love you sissy. tell mom and dad that I love them too okay. I got to go tho." i heard her tell mom and dad and in usion they all said it back before hanging up. I put the phone down and thanked the nurse. she smiled at what i had said to my sister. 

i sat back down waiting for max. Hope fully he wakes up soon.

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"Dakota?" I heard a nurse call. I haven't slept yet but i stood up. "Yes? Is it max?" She giggled. "Yes and I got a confirmation that your allowed visitation rights by a Nathan?" "His guardian." I responded. She waved me over and I followed her down the hall. She stopped at a door and allowed me to go in. When I opened the door, he didn't even look as he powered off the tv. He looked shocked. Like he didn't expect me to be the one who saved him. "I can explain." I said.

okay so im going to stop this chapter here and pick back up as dakota in the next chapter with his speech about everything so i hope y'all enjoyed. Please remember to vote and comment and call the suicide hotline at the top of this chapter if you ever have thoughts of suicide. I care about everyone's well being.