To Be Saved

To Be Ready

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Previously: Sirius is free and has the custody of Harry.
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Sirius was elated. Being free was like a whole new experience. After the trial had ended, Harry had been sent back to school. There were still 2 weeks for summer vacations to start and therefore Sirius had a lot of time to get the Black Manor ready for Harry and him to settle in. Currently he was living in Remus's quarters in Hogwarts with him. The Daily Prophet had published a front page article on his story, written by Fudge himself, as he had requested.

There were people who didn't believe it, people who completely believed it, people who were skeptical and people who were simply indifferent towards the news. But Sirius didn't care, he had everything he needed right here. Harry was with him, Remus was alright and Snivellous had turned into a good guy! A miracle must have taken place while he was gone or something.  But apparently it was Lily's death that had changed him. Apparently he had vowed to protect Harry to his best abilities and change into a better man and according to Sirius, he was doing an appreciatable  job. He had even said 'thank you' to him. Yes, you heard that right. He, Sirius Black had been grateful to Severus Snape for being there for Harry when he and Remus weren't. So they were in good terms now.

Two days after the trial had ended, Sirius decided to visit Gringotts and withdraw some money and also take care of all of his property that was left to him since his lovely parents had passed. Since Narcissa was younger to him and Bella was in Azkaban, he would get all the property including the Grimmauld Place.

He stepped into Gringotts with a charming smile, oh how good it felt to be free. He went to his family goblin, Aedirnian.

"Ah, Mr. Black Its been a long time. I presume you are here to make a withdrawal and sign property papers."

"Yes yes, Aedir. But I would like to visit my vault first, if you would be so kind. And please call me Sirius."

"Of course."

With that they went to visit his vault. He took a lot of money with him and went back to Aedirnian's office.

"About my properties, is The Black Manor in a livable state." Sirius asked the goblin. There was no way he was going to make Harry live in an atmosphere as dark as Grimmauld Place. So he decided to make The Black Manor, which he had purchased at 18 years of age, his and Harry's home.

"I'm not so sure about that. Perhaps you ought to visit it. Your Manor house elf, Robbie is still there though, so I don't suppose it would be too bad."

With that he signed all the papers, took his money and left. He was going to give his old manor a visit but he saw that it was already 4:30 in the evening and decided to head back to Hogwarts.
He used the common flu network in leaky cauldron and flued back to Remus's quarters.

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Harry was having a normal day. At least what was normal for him. He woke up at 5 in the morning because of another nightmare. He had placed silencing charms all around his bed so others wouldn't wake up to his nightly screaming sessions.

He got out of bed and went to the washroom. He looked into the mirror and took in his own appearance. His messy black hair was soaked in sweat and matted on his head. His green eyes were red around the rims, indication that he had been crying in his sleep, had took on a lifeless grey colour. His skin was more pale than usual and he looked even more thin. Probably the result of not eating anything yesterday. The black circles under his grayish- green eyes had turned into bruises. That would be because he barely slept anymore. He would get a total of three hours of sleep everyday before waking up to a nightmare.

He had all kinds.of nightmares. Mostly they were about uncle Vernon or his amazing school adventures or his parents death but sometimes he would have dreams about drowning, not in water but in infinite darkness. Atleast that's what it felt like. It was water but it was black, no light visible and he would be drowning in that black water. Choking, calling for help but no one ever comes, nobody rescues him and right when he was about to lose consciousness, he would wake up panting and gasping for air realizing that it was all a dream.

He absent-mindedly took of his shirt and stared at his bare skin. His front and back were both riddled with scars with a story of their own. He traced his finger on one of the large scars that ran from his left shoulder to his right side on the stomach. It was a knife wound from when he was 10 years old. Uncle Vernon was drunk out of his mind and let's just say it didn't end well. He had whip marks all over him...but the scar he was most disgusted about was the word that was carved onto his back after his first year in hogwarts. Worthless  - it read. It was the worst day of his life. Hogwarts had sent a letter to his kind relatives informing them about his brave act and telling them that they should be proud of him. By mistake he had smirked and Uncle Vernon made sure to remind him he was  worthless and so he carved it onto his back so he would always remember.

Lastly he looked at his wrists. Those were his own handiwork. The more he looked at them he felt like cutting more. It was just so relieving. It helped him shut his mind out. Without thinking he pulled the hidden blade from his pocket out and cut once. Then twice. Before he knew it, he had cut more than ten times and reopened old cuts making them bleed freely.  Before he went out of control, he quickly washed his hands and took a swift shower and got dressed for the day. When he got out he saw all his roommates had woken up and Ron was getting dressed. It was 7 already. He'd been in there for two hours! Pathetic. He thought.

"Hiya mate." Greeted Ron
"Hey"
"Let's get ready for breakfast, class starts in 45 minutes."

With that they both took of for breakfast. They met Ginny and Hermione in the hallway and they tagged along. When he saw Sirius in the breakfast table he smiled but then avoided any interaction throughout the day. He just wasn't ready yet.

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