A bit of my notes

CODY

Cody is annoying he is protecting a girl that lies and like him I can't with him anymore he is marking me get more press then I alredy have and I think I have to change my self....I really don't want to but it's the best or just not be he's friend anymore he's blaming everything on me and josh and we haven't done anything it's gabby that are doing everything why dose he need to be that way :/ ( 08:10 , söndag 18 april 2021 ) That's what they do okay? They act like they want to be ur friend with you , they act like they will be ther forever And one day they will 1one up all ther stuff and move away and take everything with them " be my friend , brake me , easily replace me, hopefully you see it clear , hopefully it's HD" oh you don't understand I really tried this time but you ignored it and replace me and all you say is " sry,, ///// Cody it's to you /// until you see this ( I'm not sad I'm just bored and wnat him to see that replace me is a life decision "

I'll never forget the day we start talking...because that day I met my best friend my ride or die and somebody taht I wanted to have in my life forever and I remember that day we become strangers again and everything wanish I really need someone to talk to right now I ahve andi and Hary but Idk if I can trust them or I will dump them like Bobby Cody and stevie I promise YALL i have cryed and cryed idk HEO to fix it Harry said it was pretty bc after I left

Hello, Bastian I'm not sorry because I unfriend you, I'm sorry that you and Cody can't see what I see. That Cody treat me bad as a friend and take that girl over me she have done very rude things to me and alied to Cody that she never did that. And here from a girl this is how I see her: I see her as a pick me girl as she always matches with your boy friend and call her bub and more things, Cody says it's only in a friend way, I know as a girl that Cody MABYE not like her but she likes Cody and that makes me very upset because I think she's trying to make him straight, bi or pan just to like girls it annoys me very much and distroy our friend ship because I can't with her and I can't with Cody that believe her and not me even if he knew me for years and yeah I'm just saying that I can be friends with yall ( even if I don't want to because how yall treated me as a friend ) if she gets taken or not our friend anymore. DONT say that I'm bossy right now because I'm just giving ideas and tips I don't want to hurt your feelings when I left everybody in the friend group I'm just saying that I can't with YALL. YALL makeing me as a bad friend and as I never should meet anyone of YALL that I just ruin your life and friend ships I'm very sorry I said hey and meet yall im not sorry that I left I'm sorry that I came I know I didn't do anything bad but Cody did and I'm just saying that I feelt too bad after Gaby came so I left YALL I started to feel like I was a bad fiend and nobody ther And I don't want to bother yall anymore I left YALL and the friend group and remove everything we had , memories, pics, as YALL never was in my life and YALL can do the same because I don't have anything more to do the last thing I have left with YALL is the book I'm writing 8 pages with whole our life together when we are 17 and yeah that's the last thing I have left I'm delete if everything soon... so YALL can do the same because this all have get ruined by Gaby and I feel like replaced stevie feel the same but don't want to lose YALL Gaby took to much space to YALL

A time ago I start to take pils I didn't stop I took them while my mom didn't know when she was gone and I took them when ever I feelt nothing it Start like that until it went hard for me in real and online I start to think abt my death and it didn't went good I start to try kill my self and I told my close friends this was the last time they will see me bc what they did after I said that they came home to be but before I talked to my mum So I felt a bit better they randomly came home to me and said I was a lier bc I was not dead yet I ah sit hard after taht then I start to be online Get some friends it didn't went good ther too they start to talk abt me and I start to get hate for nothing I found teh right friend but she felt Toxic bc I had to use my money for her when we was at the store so I just was home that day I was going to do it I fainted and when I woke up mum Was not at home so I start to cover up the places I hit my self , my neck , my wrist and like that I had to wear hoodie for a long time until it Was not ther anymore but I still hurt my self but I try to stop I have stoped W pils but ahve pils under my bed if I can't take it I write everything In a safe place and I wish from my heart that I will die at my bday that is soon so I have live life those days and I think it's time I haven't tell Anybody bc I don't want anybody to know so I try to hide it but I might wont be here next week but it's alr bc it's payback how ppl treated me as Trash and taht I'm nothing so yeah but I trying to chill I will regret to say this here but I hope my friends don't see this ngl it whould be pretty Sad bc nobody know only the person taht read this