Forest

The girl in the forest

As I rinsed my face off to go to bed I realized I got blood on the sink, my mom came up telling me to hurry up. I quickly tried to clean it up fast so she wouldn't see it but she opened it up, I put my foot over the spot making sure she couldn't see it. She looked around suspiciously realizing nothing was there she left yelling to hurry. I heard her go downstairs and i hurriedly got the ground and got rid of it. I walked to my room not realizing there was blood on my foot. I turned off my lamp. Put on my music and began to dream. This time Something weird happened. I dreamed of a forest, as I normally do. But this time I entered it, slowly stepping in hundred of crows flew from the tree tops. I got scared for a second, yet still continued. I woke up to my mother crying before I could picture the inside. I got out of bad confused as ever. Wondering why my mother could be crying. "What is it mom, what happened" I yelled. My mother responded with a cry and spoke quietly "you did it again, you...you promised you wouldn't." Looking around I noticed the blood on the carpet. "Shit" I whispered. "How could I be so stupid. My mother got up. Moved me out the way and said "that's it. I tried and tired. Your hopeless. Your going to therapy." I fell to the ground emotionless screaming "I'm not hopeless I won't again I promise please not therapy!" I wasn't screaming because I hate opening up to people I was screaming because I had really let myself go. How much longer would I make it. I don't know. Thoughts raced through my head faster than ever before. I couldn't keep track of them "what's going to happen" "will I really have to speak to a therapist" "is she going to really go through with it" "this is bullshit! I should just end it now" sure enough I heard her downstairs calling. This was happening. The first time I had cut my self, I has stupidly landed myself in the hospital, I promised my mom I wouldn't. Look where that turned out. I lazily walked to my room and slammed the door. I picked up a cigaret and a bottle of vodka and climbed out my window, and sat on my roof. Looking upon this dreadful city of wild rose, wi. As if our family didn't stick out enough by being the new family. We had the largest house in town. It's like my parents wanted me to move here and blend in with a "hi I'm new sticker" on my forehead. I sat there for an hour or so watching the sun rise while the ashes fell. The smell of vodka filled the arm I breathed. Feeling light headed I went inside and checked the time. I sighed as I realized it was 6:45 almost time to start school. I had to get ready now because that's what normal people do right? Well anyways I flung open my closet door, grabbed clothes that didn't scream "I'm new look at me!" Grabbed my backpack and headed out. I slammed the front door behind me pissed still. I got into my car that I got when I turned 16. And drove off. I was not excited to go to school. Ever. I tried to make myself feel better remembering I had a bio med class. That helped a little knowing I wouldn't hate every class. Arriving, I realized the name of the damn school "wild rose high school" how clever I thought. Walking in the door I spotted all the groups. Jocks, preps, nerd, emos as people would call them. I disagree with them though. I never realized where I fit in. I never had a group. Getting into my first class I already realized I had all the preps. Everywhere I tried to sit down it was always a "this seat is taken" I didn't believe it though. I found a seat in the back next to this guy. His dark brown messy but not. His deep brown eyes that glimmered in the light. I sat trying not to screw up in front of the hot guy on the first day. He asked me "why my hair was blue, he asked if it was to match my eyes?" I laughed. I replied with a simple smile and said "no it's because my friend was dared to dye it while I was sleeping so I had to dye it all" he smiled and his smile is so contagious I smiled back. He calmly said "your cute you know, I like your dimple" I blushed not knowing what to say. "what's your name again?" Regaining focus I tried to say calmly "Allison, what's yours" but I spoke so fast. Thank god he knew what I was saying. "Alex" that's such a cute name I thought. "You're the new girl right?" "Yes I replied" noticing it was obvious. I shrunk back in my chair a little bit. "He grabbed my hand and looked me in the eyes while saying "hey, don't be nervous I've got your back okay." "Awwwww how cute little Alex boy found himself a girlfriend!" I heard this blonde bitch scream across the room. Alex looked at me with tears in his eyes don't listen to them okay, you can still save yourself from listening to they're bullshit. He pulled his hand, his sleeve slipped and I noticed several cuts. "Alex" I said with an astonished look. He had no expression he just said "I'm sorry, I love you. I feel it already. I have to go. I'm sorry" he ran out of the classroom. Knowing how he felt. I wasn't going to let him go. I chased him down the hallway and followed him outside. I grabbed him by the arm. He turned around tears in his eyes. I pulled up my sleeve and said "it's okay. I'm here for you" he looked up. And said "do you love me, did you feel the connection?" And I honestly felt it. It was strange. Almost as if I had known him for years. I simply replied "yes" he smiled, the tears stopped. He leaned forward and kissed me. He whispered "run away with me" the thought of leaving with him was amazing. I said yes but not today. He agreed. I heard the bell ring from outside. I said shit. My mom. I have to be home right away. I quickly kissed him and went to my car. Pulling out of school, I remembered the bullshit I was going home to. I began to cry. Anywhere I was I felt alone. I reached over on my seat to grab a bottle of vodka, then realized I was being followed by that bitch and her friends. I tried escaping them but it didn't work. I gained enough speed where I was far enough forward they couldn't see where I was going. I pulled into an off road. I kept going and soon realized it was a dead end. "Fuck! Looks like I'm here for a while." I got out of my car and pulled out a cigaret, I flicked open my lighter and lit it. I looked around not knowing where the fuck I was until I realized it. It was from my dreams. I got a chill up my back. The crows flew from the tree tops. My curiosity got the best of me. I walked in. I got as far as my dream had gone, scared to push on further I sat there until I built up the courage. I pushed on. Getting further in it began to get clearer and clearer until I got to a stream. This place was beautiful. The golden colors of autumn everywhere. I'd love to paint it. Going over the stream by a path of stones I made it to the other side. My heart began to race as I heard something coming out of the trees. I got ready to run, as I nearly jolted, a girl came out. "Don't be frightened! I'm not here to hurt you. I'm Jill, what's your name" a little creeped out I said " well fuck. First that is for no warning then creepily coming out of the dark woods. But Allison. Nice to meet you." She laughed, her black hair falling on her face, she looking up with bright green eyes. Her red dress swaying "I'm terribly sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you. I haven't seen anyone in here in years." I grew confused. "Whoa whoa. How long have you been in here. "Only a couple hours." She said "I come in here to escape, paint. All that" I grew excited. Yes another friend I though. Though she looked the age of a 9 year old I went with it. "You like to paint. That's awesome. Me too." "here" she pulled me all the way to log besides the stream and pulled out paper and paint. "This is where I paint most of my stuff. It's quite beautiful isn't it in here?" I couldn't agree more I though but didn't speak. "So what brings you in here." "Escaping. Lifes a bitch" she smiled, she almost had a dimple exactly like mine. "You swear a lot" I got silent and stuttered with speaking "I'm..I'm sorry. I don't mean to. If you want me to stop just tell me. "No silly" she replied. It's a unique feature to you. I wouldn't change anything about you ever. She seemed oddly nice. It started to get dark so I said that I had to go. She grew sad. Please come back tomorrow. Although I like being alone, it's lonely in here. Please come back. Don't leave me like the others. I'll come back I promise. I left and got in my car. It was getting chilly. The stars were already out. "God damn it, my mom is going to be so mad" I tore out of there not looking back. I slowly opened the door trying to be quiet. " ALLISON ROSE JACKSON!" I heard my mom yell from the kitchen. "I'm sorry mom this little girl was uhh. Lost.!" My mother sighed. "Alright, how was school?" "Usual" I said. I put my headphones on and walked up stairs. My mom screamed loud enough to sound like she was right next to me "don't you want supper!" "No!" I screamed back. I couldn't eat. If I eat I get fat and then I'll be picked on. As long as I don't eat I'm good. I closed my door. Rolled onto my bed. I stared at the ceiling with my music blaring. I drifted off. My eyelids became heavy. I fell asleep. There it was. The forest. This time I got to walk in. But I walked in. Not to see beautiful golden leaves. But to see dead brown leaves. I continued, walking farther and farther in. I saw a house. I carefully walked up the stairs. They creaked making the hairs on my skin stand up. I opened the door with caution but only to see the girl from the forest dead. My jaw fell open. What is this. This can't be real. What if this is what happened. Is she even real. I have to go back. I woke up breathing heavy. "That can't be real, I saw her! I saw her!"