Dear DSMP

Dear Ranboo

Dearest Ranboo,

  I am unsure of how to continue onwards without you. I admire how quickly you made friends in the foreign world you now call home. I hear from the guards how highly you speak of this boy named Tubbo and a little pig-man you have adopted, whom I believe is called Michael, good choice, I am quite sure father would have loved to meet him. I hope you are doing well Ran, I have left a great gift for you underneath your pillow for when you return home.

  I fear you do not remember me, and that the new beings you have met and started new journeys with have taken up the space in your big heart that once belonged to me. Yes, it is tremendously sad that my own little brother may not know who has been writing to him all this time, but it makes leaving you so much easier for me.

  In the case that you do remember me, please let me explain why I have finally made the choice to leave everything. I was perfectly fine with my life and ruling the kingdom has been going swell, I just...can't. I find nothing entertaining and worth living for, getting off my mattress in the morning has gotten so difficult, brother. I can't see a future ahead of me, and with you off living your best life and I stuck here, ruling over a kingdom where nothing exciting happens anymore. It is just so hard, Ranboo. I need to escape, I have tried everything, but it has all failed. I am leaving this twisted universe. I guess I just wanted to write a final goodbye to my brother whom I love dearly, though I would have thought if I were to ever do something like this, that it would have been in person. But hey, not everyone gets what they want.

Goodbye my sweet younger brother.

Until we meet again,

Enderavas

P.S. I left instructions for the kingdom in a small black box in the corner of my gown closet.