Dear DSMP

Dear Wilbur

Dear Wilbur,

  I love you. I love you so God damn much I don't know how to show it except writing it down. I love the way your hair flops on your face, and you must brush it away with your big hands every five minutes. I love the way your eyes light up when you smile, you could lighten the mood in a room of depressed teenagers with that award winning smile. Your laugh, oh your laugh, it carries in a sweet melodic tune, and it just makes me feel so complete. I love you Will, please forgive me.

  I know I ran when you needed me most, I know I left you to raise Fundy all on your own. I am a bad wife, mother and just in general a bad person. I miss you to the moon and back. The way I left you makes it seem like I left for another man, I didn't. I swear that is not the case. I could never be with another man after meeting you. I

  I just couldn't handle it. The stress took over me. I began to feel like my mother, I did not want to be abusive to our son like my parents were to me, so I up and left. Now years later I realise my awful mistake. I haven't moved on from you. I think about you two every day. How we planned to be together forever. I hate the way things worked out, and that when I saw Fundy the other day, walking with a blonde headed teen, he didn't know who I was. It broke my heart but it was well deserved.

  I want you to know that I never really left, although it appeared that way. I have been living in a not so far away pond. I have seen you and Fundy build a great nation. I have tried to send little things that could help you along the way. I have always been with you, Wilbur.

  I am not writing, asking you to take me back. All I want is to know that there is a slight chance that you could forgive me. I can live with knowing that eventually there could be a day where we can go for a walk or even just talk without you hating me completely.

  Though if there is no chance that you think you can forgive me, I cannot say I blame you, although I would like you to. I will move officially on with my life, and let you do the same. If you have managed to read through my letter without tearing it and throwing it away, thank you.

Best wishes,

Sally