Slipping away

They year they Met

   The year started off dull till 3 months in she met him. Slightly shorter, slightly younger brown eyed curly hair. At first glance she knew she had to have you in her life for better and for worst. She wasn't mentally stable and was ready to slip away. He was the light in her life that made her want to try to not just survive but live again. Everyday that passed she grew more confident and more self loving. He had helped her through a lot within 6 months that they had then known each other. They kept in touch when he moved away but 8 months later he fell for her best friend and they grew together and she was still in love with him. They drifted and barley talk now but him and her best friend are inseparable. They talk everyday like she and him use too.  She remembers all the good times and the sweet little things he would say to her. She started slipping back towards the end looking at all the memories in her photo album,looking at his hoodie and t-shirt she had kept safe in a box. Even after she was told to burn it by his cousin. She wouldn't because she promised she would keep them safe and because she had more respect for him than that. She had so much respect for him that she wouldn't even talk to his friends to get a relationship or his family but he didn't have the same respect for her. He left her wondering what was wrong with her, why wasn't she good enough. She then developed an it is what it is mentally and stopped caring for everyone like that just so she wouldn't get hurt again. She now has 2 guys that she really enjoys talking to but she cut off her humanity so she couldn't feel pain. She knows if she turns it back on everything will come rushing back in and flooding her eyes. She can't hide forever and she knows that but she can for now till she's truly happy with herself first. All his work has started to become undone all because he left her. She's slipping away again.