To You

#1 : To you who I am sorry to

I wanted to start with how you are doing but couldn't. I wanted to say hello but was scared to be ignored. Will you look at me again, will you care about me, will you...

You were beautiful no matter from which direction I see. Your existence was a gift, your existence was my life source, without I couldn't have survived you know it and so do I.

I don't know how much time had passed but years ago you were cherished. You were worshipped, feared, and admired. You were away from my filthy hands that could destroy you 'cause I didn't have power nor greed. I was happy with my simple life and loved you with all my heart.

Now I have power which I used to destroy you, little by little. I have power due to which I want to live in luxury. When I got to live in luxury by destroying you, there was a birth of greed within me. I started to destroy you more to gain more.

I polluted you myself... I destroyed you who I cherished more than myself. I forgot that you have feelings, that you can experience pain.

For a short period, I realized you were hurting and wanted to stop but my greed had taken over me. You thought I was an angel when I first came to you but I had a demon in my heart which grew with time.

I, a demon, continued to destroy you, your beauty which made my day in the past.

I destroyed your land which I considered home.

I destroyed your light which guided me.

I just...kept destroying you.

Now you are almost dying... your eyes which you used to look at me with love, is filled with some other emotion, not hate but regret.

You want revenge.

You want to destroy me too.

But...you couldn't, you didn't dare; so you send a warning, a warning saying that

I am stronger than you,

I can destroy you,

But I don't want to because I still love you.

Receiving the warning I looked back at the destruction I caused... A tear left my eye. I destroyed you but you still love me.

It's too late but I want to ask for forgiveness. I want to stop... it is not easy to suppress my greed which became my need but I will stop... I will slowly little by little... I will.

From a human,
To my beloved Mother Nature.