As a child, Manda had reddish-brown hair color and slightly lighter skin than other children. However, is it wrong? Not. She also had difficulty speak in Javanese, even though she was born in Central Java. That was because Sundanese and Javanese cultures flow inside of her. Her parents tried to teach Manda to communicate in Indonesian, so when she met relatives in Jakarta, she would not have trouble speaking. Eventually, it becomes a habit. She often uses Indonesian.
It was just a small difference. However, the world often looks down on something special. Since elementary school, Manda has been treated differently. She was ridiculed and accused of being a foreigner. It was not unusual for Manda to sit alone during recess, no children want to play with her. Entered the middle of the first semester, the attitude of other children became increasingly aggressive. They started to attack her.
Manda, who was timid and closed at the time, only endured the pain as she walked home. Her skin was covered in bruises, as well as blood from the scratches. She was always beaten, grabbed, even spat on. Luckily, her parents had a high concern and reported it. Both the teacher and the mother of the perpetrators scolded their child. However, anger made her friends act even worse on her.
That girl with thick eyebrows had mild asthma and easily surprised. Instead of being cautious, the other kids looked for opportunities to surprise her. Manda had a fever for almost a whole week. Her body is also vulnerable. She never attended a full lesson in a week, there must have been absences.
Approached third grade, Manda did her mother's orders to fight to bully. She began to open up and be brave. She doesn't stand still for a hit. Eventually, her friends stopped treat her as self-serving. Since then a new problem had arisen. Her talent was brilliant enough to make some teachers pay more attention and it made other students jealous.
Physical bullying stopped when she graduated. Manda began to flap her wings as a good student. She always ranked in the top three in Junior High School. Again, the teachers paid too much attention. Manda was used to sitting with two teachers who were like mother and father to her. They gave gifts and flattery. Things that were special at that time, such as pulses, shoes, and dolls.
Rumors were made by those who hated Manda. Dated teachers, cuddled with men, even spread hate speech. It was fake news that was deliberately spread to bring down her mentality. However, she is still resistant because several friends support her. However, she was mentally crushed as she approached the second-grade class. Her closest friends betrayed her. Disgusted issues were getting wild. The tragedy of loneliness was repeated. Manda, who usually received offers to work together when formed a group, now no one wanted to be close to her.
All achievements began to feel in vain. She no longer wants to study or communicate. She closes her heart and builds a giant wall in the family and society. Psychic hit repeatedly until it broke. She just cried with the pillow. No sound, no moaning. Only the feel squeezed her chest and pulls out her hair. Every time like that. She can cry seven times a day. Yes, more than taking medication times.
Her soul dries up. Her spirit was gone. Many times she wanted to kill herself. In the silence, she heard a formless voice. Prevent her from doing something silly. Call it imagination, but Manda believes that it is a part of her that will disappear when her breath stops. She lived like a corpse. Sometimes Manda was also afraid that she will fall and die because of the sadness that made her whole body tremble.
Manda was trying to forget everything. High-level depression managed to make her brain receive automatic memory erasure commands, which is impossible for some people. It was also difficult for doctors to explain. Manda had forgotten everything that traumatized her, both events and the names of people around her. It was difficult for her to remember people's faces or activities that had just been done in the last hour. She also did not remember whether she ate or not. However, it is better. She passed with standard marks. No longer competing and trying to prove yourself as the best. Didn't even want to attend the graduation ceremony.
More comfortable, she managed to make peace with himself. Even so, Manda still hates the past. She has a great desire to stop the misfortune that is happening in the world. It's like being born again. Choose a new personality that is contrary to the identity. She forgets her arrogance and tries to be a calm girl. Unfortunately, she couldn't hear other people calling her 'Manda' anymore. She already hates the name, then uses another nickname.
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