I'm feeling lost like I'm all alone again
No one seems to realize how I'm slowly fading
My mind is a mess and my thoughts won't let me sleep
Wish I could die and be reincarnated as a cherry tree
Minute by minute...hour by hour
I feel like I'm losing it all
All my existence fading away in oblivion
Never to be found again
My mind is desperately trying to find peace
Peace, an illusion of calmness
Trying to hide all the turmoil behind thin sheets
But it can't even save itself from degrading slowly
All my memories are locked away
I never want to relive them
As they are too happy to look at
I dont want to question my past so I let them be
This insecurity is ruining me all over again
I am fighting it with all my might but it is getting stronger and stronger
Day by day I'm being consumed by this reality
Yet I'm holding on with all my might
Because I dont want to lose it yet
Because I dont want to lose the paracosm of my existence
The paracosm illustrated by them
The paracosm shaped into a reality by their smiles
The paracosm I never want to leave.
