pressure

The start

For years I've been the underdog. The one who's seen as weak, worthless, a woman. In this life , my life being a woman , the only woman is hard. Urgh and seriously the men in my family, I wish I had caring people who I could talk to. I haven't been able to emotionally talk to my dad or my brother since- . Yeah, since then . "ARMANI COME DOWN NOW !"

Urgh, my dad ? Why's he calling me. I walk downstairs thinking to myself if I've done anything to upset him.. or to aggravate him. I don't want to be in trouble , from the last bruises I don't think I'd be able to take more . "Yes?" Scrunching my hands softy as I speak.

"We're leaving. For Milan, your brother and I have got some business to finish off with the peligroso Gonzales Cartel. I've told you about this before," he says.
"Papa, how long are you guys going for? I wished to do something with Alejandro," he turns to me with a apologetic face, "I understand, it's evident you want to spend time with your older brother but we had discussed this before, he will be stepping up in our cartel, our own operation-" i interrupt feeling undermined "But papa , you promised me I would be apart of the Cartel, it's not fair , you always keep promises you can't keep," I turn away, stood in-front of me he lifts my chin so that we're face to face. "Princesa I know, but this cartel oh it's a dangerous one. Maybe next time. You're too young and you're a woman..women shouldn't be in with the dirty work."

"Fine." I turn away and go upstairs to my room, on my way into my bedroom, slamming my door. Our cartel,well my fathers cartel, for years I've been promised territory and men to run my
own operations but seen as I'm a woman those hopes had been
compromised. *knock knock* one knock after another *knock knock knock* and another and another. "Come in." It's Miguel. MIGUEL MIGUEL. Miguel's been my crush for years. What's he doing here? Shouldn't he be with papa -in him being my fathers right hand man although he's only 24, he's the most trusted in our cartel. "I heard what you and your father discussed mi amor , and I wanted to let you know that-

*CRASH*
Glass? GLASS? I heard glass. "Let me go check that out Miguel hold on,"

*BOW BOW BOW*

Shots.. SHOTS. Gunshots specifically. I stop in my tracks and turn to Miguel. "Miguel , what's happening?" He looks at me with some sort of a look , a look of I don't know . sorrow? Why would he be sorrowful? What did he plan. "ARMANI , PRINCESA. GET TO THE SAFE. I LOVE YOU!" My dad screams from downstairs , I had heard rustle, glasses breaking, things being thrown around, clatter . " Get to the safe, now."

Not an order, a command. A command. I move , feeling numb, wondering what's going on, what where the shots about. I do the safe password and immediately I'm pushed in, doors shut .

But I'm not alone I turn to look at the other person in here with me.

"Miguel. What the fuck is happening?"