The Little Scared Girl.

The Day I Lost My Soul.

A house full of people some of them are known to you while the others are just here to see how you are handling things on your own ....

Probably my heart is feeling dark and black right now may be it's because so many people are here and all of them are wearing black dresses ... which is quite depressing ... but I dont want to feel in the same way they are feeling ...

While Standing at the staircase and looking at the house and people around you having tears in their eyes making me think and question ; are these crocodile tears ... or are they crying for real?

5 hours earlier ..

I got interrupted while I was writing the diary by loud yelling and crying noice of my mom coming from downstairs, so I hurriedly walked out of my room and as I was walking on the stairs I saw my mom, her back was towards me she was cutting my vission so I was not able to see why my mother was crying out loud ...

Deep inside in my heart I knew something bad is about to happen or already happened but I was still praying to hear something good or satisfying and then I got the courage and in broken sentence and with dry throat I called

Mo.... Mom what's wroo......

Hearing my voice made mom suddenly step aside and she rushed towards me and there I was able to see what really happened and what I saw made me feel like I was paralysed .....

Grandad was lying on the floor and there was blood coming out of his mouth ... he was unconscious and my mom was trying to wake him up ...

After looking at this situation I froze on the spot, my mom pulled me and said in crying voice ;

Alex wait here .. wit....

She grasped and completed the sentence
With your Grandad ..  don't you leave him .. I am going to get some help ...
Alex are you listening to me ..
Alex

She called my name in anger ..

I nodded ...

Ok dear I'll be here soon with some help

As she said this she ran out of the house...

My chest tightened painfully watching the person _ the man of my life like this and it just seemed like it's a nightmare ...

I was still standing and froze on the same place ...

Suddenly I saw Grandad blinked his eyes and here tears dropped from my eyes ...

He looked at me and tried to raise his hand towards me and he also give me a smile ....

I couldn't see him like this so I rushed towards him to hold his hand _ to tell him how much I need him _ that how much I love him and that I am nothing without ... but as I reached and tried to hold his hand his hand fell on the floor ....

I screamed, I hugged him and begged not to leave me and there my mom and uncle came with the doctors ...

Mom pulled me from gradad's chest and took me to the corner so that the doctors could examine him clearly ...

Dr. Checked Grandad and from the corner I read the lips of the doctor when they told my uncle

I am sorry he's gone ...

I couldn't resist this all situation and

I ran to upstairs to my room and locked myself for about a whole hour ... cried like an insane person .... I was not ready for all of this .. I was just not .... he was not supposed to leave me ...