manifestation journal

chapter 1

                                                                                  part 1

                                                                                  age 10

i was sitting in the corner of my room.

crying.

all i heard was 'THUMP CRASH CRASHH' and some yelling...

my parents were fighting again.' ugh i hate when this happens' thought to myself.

literally my parents fight like every single day now and i just want to yell at them to stop, but i cant because it would make things worse.

and the only words i coukld desiphere were "YOUR STUPID I DONT KNOW WHY I EVER DECIDED TO MARRY YOU" and "YOUR WORTHLESS IM PACKING MY BAGS AND LEAVING".

you think that for a 10 year old that would be hard?

its been happening since i was 8..

at first it started like this:

my mom caught my dad taking another girl out for dinner

my dad was never at home 

my mom started getting distant for a long time

and then there was just yelling 

my dad kept getting drunk and my mom started smoking.