I don't know why I am sad. I don't even know if this feeling is sadness. I actually don't feel anything. It's like numbness took over my whole self. I can laugh but I don't think I am happy. I watch incredibly sad movies just so I can cry because I need a release of this feeling. I listen to sad songs just so I can feel the real sadness. When I'm with my friends, I can laugh wholeheartedly and actually be happy. But whenever I'm alone, my demons are my confidant.
