I KNOW IT'S ONLY 12 AM IN AMERICA BUT IT'S 1 PM IN SOUTH KOREA SO FUCK IT-
HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY BANGTAN SONYEONDAN!
KIM NAMJOON! KIM SEOKJIN! MIN YOONGI! JUNG HOSEOK! PARK JIMIN! KIM TAEHYUNG! JEON JUNGKOOK! BTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay- let's get real hear. If you're ARMY, then you know how much BTS has done for this world. I'm not talking about accomplishments and records they broke, I'm talking about the spirits they saved and lives that they have changed throughout the years. I'm also one of the poeple that they saved..
They are the reason I stand with pride everyday.
They are the reason I have a shine in my eyes when I smile.
They are the reason I have soul in every step that I take.
They are the reason I'm still here.
THEY ARE THE REASON I AM ME.
..They made me realize that I am enough- no, that I am MORE than enough for myself. They taught to hold my head up high. They gave me a reason to cherish my time with the people I love. They helped me spread my damage wings and f l y from the troubles that kept me shackled to my pain and regrets..
They freed me from being something that's only a reflection of what I could be..
someone that isn't me..
someone who was miserable..
but not anymore.
I am what I am today because I can spread my wings and fly above the clouds of doubt and lies that I told myself throughout life..
I couldn't have done it without them supporting me with their words, making me see the truth, showing me what was wrong, and giving me the strength to fix my mistakes.
So i want to say thank you, BTS. Thank you for being wild dreamers who never gave up. Now, because of you, I refuse to give up on my dream. I will be everything I want to be. I will be a nurse, I will be an artist, I will play my music to millions of people just like you do.
I will succeed because of YOU.
Now time to get emotional..
It was June 19th, 2020.
My hands were bleeding.
My feet were sore from self abuse.
My face was stained from the countless tears I shed from tiredness and lost hope.
I was still ARMY at the time but they weren't on my mind.
I was ready to give up everything..
To give up my breath,
To give up my heart beat,
To give up the shine in my eyes,
To give up on ME.
..I was wondering why I bothered to love in the first place. Why i put myself in this place of pain, knowing that these people I choose to love won't love me like I love them..
I was out of love..
I was ready to end my life right then and there..
But my phone gave me a notification.
It said that BTS had released the MV for their new song 'Stay Gold'.
I put my earbuds in, thinking that I deserved to listen to one last song before death.
It changed everything. THEY changed everything.
The music, the lyrics..THEY spoke to me..they made me feel wanted, loved, cherished, and ENOUGH.
What really got me was the outro:
"The prying moonlight, I hold your hand tight, Don't want to let go, Stay Gold."
It let me know that they cared, even if they don't know me. That even if everyone leaves me, they will always be there for me. It gave me the hope to move forward. But not only for them, but for me too. It was a wake up call. I needed to learn to love myself. To appreciate me for myself. To let my true colors show and wear them with pride. They shoved me out the door and I flew with grace, stumbling a little but now I can soar on my own.
So now I got leader that breaks everything he touches.
I got a World Wide Handsome who's laugh sounds like a window getting wiped.
I got a Min Genius Suga who's still waiting for his big house, big cars, and big rings.
I got my SUNSHINE shining down on me, whispering "I hate snakeu..."
I got my own personal Mochi that has no jams (according to the leader).
I got a Gucci Man who is BTS's Secret Weapon.
And I got a Kookie who is our Gold Maknae.
Put them together and you got BANGTAN SONYEONDAN, a crack head k-pop group who saves lives and dances UwU
So thanks for existing and I hope you all, BTS and ARMYs, continue to be-
happy,
shed the tears but don't tear yourself,
find your epiphany,
and LOVE YOURSELF!
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