I wished I would've paid attention back then.
𝑦𝑒𝑎ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒
"So whats it like?" you asked.
𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟
"Whats what like?" I looked at you curiously.
𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡
"Being the person I would love unconditionally and never stop even if I hurt you" you spoke with truth.
𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑎 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑝
" Well since you worded it so nicely I feel honored and flattered" I laughed.
𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑠?
"I'm glad you do" you said with humor. But I could've sworn at that moment I saw a flash of truth in your eyes.
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜?
I ignored it.
𝑔𝑜𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑜𝑡
"What do you think of me?" you asked ever so slightly.
𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑎 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡.
"My thoughts about you are so very complex and I want to love you in every possible way I can even if it kills me on the inside" I spoke with way too much truth.
𝑜ℎ ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒.
"Even if if kills you?" you asked again.
𝑛𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑛𝑜
"Even if it kills me" I replied without hesitation.
𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑
"You sure are special, you know that dont you?" you said with a chuckle.
𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑓𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.
"I think I do. But I have a question" I asked looking at you square in the face.
𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦
"Yes?" replied the untamed one.
𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑓𝑎𝑠𝑡
"You would never actually hurt me right?"
𝐼𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑑
"We all do things we dont want to but you I would never hurt without thinking of love" you replied ever
so calmly.
𝑔𝑜𝑑 𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠.
"Thank you for being honest" I smiled again.
𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡
"Anything for you" you looked at me so wonderfully almost studying.
𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔
We had our first date that day. Oh how I wish It was our last. I only wish I realized sooner.
𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑. 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑛𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡.
fuck.
