Raindrops Of Tomorrow

I hugged myself tight as the freezing wind passed by, making me shiver at once. The sun is still not showing up since yesterday when the weather reports were actually right about the heavy rains brought by a storm. The clouds are becoming darker and darker, 12 noon seems like 12 midnight. However, a storm already started inside me. A freaking destructive storm that is consuming me bit by bit.

I don't know where to go, nor do I know if I still wanted to keep going. My favorite songs failed to cheer me up for the first time. Is this actually a sign to just end everything?

Heaven knows that I wanted to cry, but damn, my tears won't come out. I just wanted to shout, but I really can't. This is torture.

An even more chilly wind greeted me, and the rain started pouring. I actually don't care if I get sick, but my things will get wet. Not that I am going to school starting tomorrow, though. Haha.

I found a waiting shed that lacks a single soul who had forgotten to bring an umbrella. I mean, who is stupid enough not to bring one? Yes, me.

"What happened to you? From a student who always excels at her academic performances, to a student who can't even answer basic algebra. You are such a disappointment, a disgrace to our family! I can't believe I am even related to you."

I hugged myself even tighter. Stop, please. Go away.

"So you actually failed the UPCAT exam? What happened to you, Shine? You used to be a straight-A student. You even failed to enter other Universities that you applied to. What are you going to do now?"

I felt an excruciating pain inside my chest. I am scared and extremely hurt. I don't want to replay this, please. Stop tormenting me.

"Due to your failing grades and absentees, I am afraid that we have to revoke your scholarship. Sorry, Ms. Reyes, but if you failed to pay for the remaining balance, we need to expel you."

I couldn't breathe. I couldn't even ask for help. I am really terrified, yet I still can't cry. Damn! I am so tired of this life!

And then I saw a very tall guy, running in my direction. I needed help, but my social anxiety took over and told me to pretend that everything is fine. And so I did.

It's a bit dark, and I can't see him clearly. But as he started to initiate a conversation, I just couldn't deny who he is.

"Miss, I can literally hear you breathing so hard. Are you ok?" The stranger asked me.

No, not a stranger... I know him. At least, by his on-cam personality.

I turned to face him, and let out a really heavy sigh to try and calm myself. I am still having a Panic Attack, but this man is making me more tensed than ever.

Damn you, Shine. Everyone who is in your position will literally scream. Why can't you even react?

"Oh no... you recognized me." He made a face. "I just want a quiet afternoon, though."

"J-Jae..."I finally opened my mouth for the first time since I woke up this morning. I have never spoken since my mother shouted at me again. I never said a word when my best friend lowkey insulted me for being such a dummy. I didn't even gasp when I found out that my only chance to go back to studying is also gone. Wow... I wish my breath won't smell bad.

"Yeah I know, the handsome Park Jaehyung of DAY6. Hallo, hallo!" He laughed and I swear, that's so precious that the weights in my chest reduced a little, just a little. "Kidding. Can I have yours?"

"Sunshine." I shyly replied, "Sunshine Reyes."

His lips made an 'o' shape, and even that is adorable. Holy gods of breakdowns and anxieties, am I valid to feel giddy after an attack? I mean damn, this is Park Jaehyung. The man I always admire from the Korean rock band that I always love since 2015.