Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 1 | Help Me!

Stacey's Pov

I think about that night a lot. It was the last time I saw him. Today marks the four hundredth day that I haven't seen his beautiful face, touched his soft skin, or heard his delicious voice. I feel like I'm dead inside but I put a smile on my face for the rest of the world.
I look out my window sitting on the chair remembering his lips on mine and I instinctively touch them and smile. His hands in my hair, on my body, craving each other after so long..
my phone ringing on the dresser pulls me from my thoughts and I jump up walking over to it seeing Mia on my screen and smiling.
"Hey girl, are we still going out tonight?" I ask her hitting play on my tablet and - Tory Lanez - plays through my speakers.
"Oh my god, yes. Come to mine and get ready with me. We'll do pre-drinks" she says and I hum agreeing with her as I open up and start looking through my closet.
"Yeah, alright. I'll be around soon. Shall I wear a dress or something else?" I ask and she hums.
"Maybe.. I'm wearing a jumpsuit babe. You'll look hot whatever you choose" she tells me and I can't help my smile. She's the best.
"Thanks babe, I'll see you soon, love you" I tell her and I hear her say it back before we hang up.

***

I showered and now smell of vanilla and honey and finally found the red dress I hadn't worn yet.
"Oh my. Yes!" I say a little excited as I take it from the hanger and look at it against my body in my full-length mirror. Yep, I agree with Mia. I'll look hot.
Folding the dress, I place it into my weekend bag and pull on my velvet black tracksuit with my Adidas trainers. I grab my silver strap heels and my silver clutch, packing everything away into my bag making sure nothing spills on my dress.
Pulling my long brown hair up into a ponytail, I grab my bag and make my way downstairs.
Heading into the kitchen where my mum is sitting at the table smoking a cigarette and reading a book, I smile and hope she gives in..
"Mum, can I have some money please? I'm going to stay at Mia's" I ask her holding out my hand like a spoilt brat.
"You always want something, Stacey. What about me?" she says like normal and I roll my eyes dropping my head back and my hand down.
Yet, I hear her rummaging through her bag on the table and pulling out her purse. I try to look inside but she moves it from my eyesight.
"You'll get nothing, if you don't move child" she warns me and I huff out and look around the kitchen idly and then back at her when I see movement in my peripheral. She hands me five twenty-pound notes and I smile at her.
"Thanks, Mum, I'll be back tomorrow" I tell her and hug her before turning to leave.
"I love you Stacey" she says and I smile saying it back as I head out, walking straight out the front door. I unlock and quickly climb into my car I got for my 18th birthday off my gambling addict dad. - all he does is buy me stuff. Time is more valuable.. which he doesn't seem to have for us anymore. I put my bag on the passenger seat sighing at my thoughts as I start the engine, my phone syncs and music comes blasting out making me smile again and pull off listening to - AJ Tracey & Kehlani - Coupé - as I sing along.

***

Pulling up outside Mia's apartment I climb out grabbing my bag and make my way to her front door, getting back out of the heat. Knocking, I wait for her to answer when the doors suddenly opens.
"Hey girl" she says and hugs me tightly.
"Girl I've missed you" I say to her as we pull apart and she leads me inside. I love Mia's apartment it's just the right size, with the open-planned living room and kitchen and two good-sized bedrooms.
Following her into her bedroom, I see the outfit she's got hanging on the mirror with the shoes and bag. It's really cute actually. I love how Mia dresses. She has a hourglass figure everyone raves about with a perfect pair of boobs and a peachy ass.. not that I don't, I just feel like mine are bigger then necessary.
"So did you decide on a dress" she asks raising a brow clearly wanting to see.
"No, I'm wearing this, what I have on" I tell her acting deadly serious but I'm only playing with her.
"Absolutely not Stacey!" she stresses then covers her mouth looking me over.
"Rude bitch! I have my dress, I was joking. But I should go like this now" I tell her crossing my arms.
"You look good babes, it's just not for nightclubs" she says and laughs a little. She's right and obviously I wouldn't go out in what I've got on. That would be weird of me.
I watch as she rummages through my bag pulling out the dress I've chosen.
"Wow. You're gonna look smokin' girl. I love it" she tells me with a massive grin. I smile at her hoping she's right. Like I said, my boobs are a huge size and I have a flat stomach but wide hips and a very round ass. This dress is going to show it all whether I like it or not. Fuck! This is all I have with me as well. And like I said my ass is big so I don't fit in Mia's clothes. Please god, work out for me. I silently pray.
"Go on.. Put it on babes I want to see what it looks like" she says fastening her bra up. We've seen each other naked a bunch of times, it's no big deal well for her anyway. Mia loves her body and she didn't even have to do anything to get it.
Stripping out my clothes and trainers I take off my bra and pull the dress over my head and smooth it down my body. It feels good. Please look good I repeat to myself with my eyes closed.
"Oh damn, you look sexy as fuck" Mia says pulling me along to look in the mirror.. Oh,Wow!
"Are you sure Mia?" I ask looking at her through the mirror.
"As if I'd let you leave here looking like a mess babes. You're too hard on yourself you're fucking beautiful" she states with no room for arguments.

***

I sit at Mia's vanity and look at the reflection staring back. What the actual fuck? Is that even me? I think to myself seeing someone completely different. Mia did my makeup for me while I just straightened my hair and curled the ends a little and it all works with the dress. This could be the new me if I put my mind to it. I take the drink she offers me and down the vodka in one.
"Hit me again" I tell her holding out my glass and she grins topping me back up. Tonight's going to be fun..
"I'm ready, you look gorgeous by the way girl" I tell her as she hooks my arm smiling leading me out of her room.
"Thanks, babes. Now let's get out of here" she says and winks at me making me giggle as we exit her apartment.

***

Walking into the club it's swarming with bodies, loud music, flashing lights and the smell of alcohol, sex and sweat. Great.
"One drink. Then we're leaving Mia" I warn her not wanting to stay in this cesspit for too long.. but she just laughs at me shaking her head. A handsome bartender comes over to us and smiles looking Mia over then me.
"What can I get you beautiful ladies" he shouts over the music but he cant keep looking from Mia. He smiles slow and sexy with lustful eyes.. but it's nothing new.

One drink turned into three as Mia flirted with plenty of guys and I just felt numb, hollow inside without the one I wanted. But I plaster a smile on my face and try to push through.
"Have fun girl!" Mia shouts over the music as she rubs her ass over one guy's crotch and it's quite sickening. How does she do this? I can't bring myself to, I just get stuck on Liam. It's his treasure, I'm his and no one else's. I can't get past that. I don't really want to. I only wanna be his. No one will ever make me feel how he does. We have a past, an undeniable connection that leads to epic sex.

I don't want anyone else. Please.. someone, help me!