would you lie with me (under the stars) and just forget the world ✧ ONESHOT

would you lie with me (under the stars) and just forget the world

"Ugh, they're here already. The pizza isn't here yet!"

"Murphy, they're our friends they'll understand," Bellamy chuckled, glancing over where Murphy sat on the kitchen counter, fiddling with his fingers.

"Well excuse me for wanting to be a good host," he said hopping off of the counter.

"I come bearing gifts," Raven said, holding a bottle of wine and some balloons. Octavia and Miller stood behind her, and appeared to be holding various birthday presents. "Where's the birthday boy?" Raven asked Bellamy with a smirk.

"Right here Reyes," Murphy said smiling back at her and opening his arms for a hug.

"Missed you cockroach," she said patting his back.

"Yeah, yeah, you too."

More knocking occurred and more guests entered the apartment throughout the hour including Clarke, Jasper, Monty, Lexa, Harper, Emori, the whole gang, as well as the pizza man who couldn't have come any later. Octavia had already started making cannibalism jokes because she was so starved.

"Let's feast," Bellamy said with a smile putting the pizza boxes on the kitchen island. Everybody grabbed pizza and drinks and milled around, some talking or sitting at the table, Monty and Jasper playing video games in the living room, and Murphy was standing in the kitchen staring off into space.

"Hey, you okay? You seem off tonight," Clarke said approaching him. "This is your party. You're supposed to be having fun."

Murphy shrugged. "I know it's just- Bellamy invited somebody," he said solemnly. "He said her name's Echo. He hasn't explicitly said anything but I just have a feeling."

Clarke nodded, putting her hand over his on the counter and rubbing his wrist with her thumb. "You can't keep torturing yourself like this y'know. You should just talk to him."

"Clarke, you know it's not that simple. He's my best friend and I've been in love with him for so long. If he doesn't feel the same way, which he won't, things will change and it's not like it's just a little school girl crush that'll go away in a couple days, it's been years."

She nodded. "I just hate seeing you in pain like this. Especially on your birthday. You want me to talk to him? Get him to uninvite her?"

"No way. I want him to be happy. It's not a big deal. Promise."

"Okay, suit yourself. Good luck though because I think she just got here," Clarke said, hearing the front door close and the music lower in volume for a moment as Murphy heightened his senses, trying to focus in on their new guest. Murphy poured a frightening amount alcohol into his cup and walked into the main living area to see Bellamy talking to the girl he'd invited. He was laughing and moving his arms around wildly as he told a story. Some of their other friends had even gathered around to meet her.

Murphy sighed, sipping his beverage slowly as he peered at her over the edge of his cup, looking the girl up and down. She was beautiful, definitely more so than himself and it made him want to crawl into a dark, little hole and die there.

Murphy walked into his bedroom to look at himself in the mirror, frowning at how his hair was sticking up in the wrong places and his nose and eyes seemed to be less proportional to his face than normal. His skin was sickly pale and his build made him look like a skeleton. Murphy could understand why Bellamy didn't feel the same way about him, especially when he had that chick in the main hall with wavy auburn hair and soft-looking skin at his disposal.

After splashing himself in the face with water in the bathroom, he walked back out to now see people back to their usual mingling, Bellamy and Echo now alone in the kitchen giggling over something together. Murphy rolled his eyes and willed away the pang in his chest with the red solo cup at his lips once again.