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𝔄𝔩𝔩 ℌ𝔢 𝔗𝔬𝔲𝔠𝔥𝔢𝔡 ℑ𝔰 𝔇𝔢𝔞𝔡

I don't know how to feel about $crim because there was so much i was already feeling but now i just have to forget it all, in a way i'll still see him a few times but what would be the point now

i went in the car and grabbed water and a Xan then said

"if the girls wake up tell them i went for a smoke"

"ayt but i think we finna get on the road live"

"ayt bet peace then have fun"

i say as i walk away, i couldn't and i won't kiss him goodbye or even hug him because i've got to just forget about it if i really wanna move on and out of his way

i don't even want to call him my man or anything, i just- i just don't want another bitch thinking she can call him that

but i guess it's none of my concern anymore. I popped a Xan and lit a cig i found in his flannel

which fucked up my sesh because it tasted a bit like his lean, but then i wonder is it even worth it anymore...

...to let myself be reminded of the most unstable person i've come across besides my mother

i decided to walk back and they were gone and the girls were ready to go just waiting for me, i hop in and molly asks

"sooo how was it gorgeous"

"Sorry M but i'm exhausted"

i said as i lay down and fall into an Xan nap immediately

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My body wakes up but my eyes stay shut, and i hear Xani talking to Ruby on facetime so i buried myself in the blankets

"where the crew at"

i heard Pouya say on the phone

"where your crew at???"

Molly replied then he went to where $crim and fat Nick was working on music

then Molly shows Xani driving then she points it at me and i flip them off

"she's been silent lately"

Xani says

"i'm not silent i'm dead so can i please rest in peace please and thanks"

i say through the blanket

"well maybe it's because we're hungry so i'll can you back later Ruby Da Boobie"

"bettt have a nice breakfast narco queens"

"byee"

we all say but i say in a deeper more annoyed tone, we stop at ihop because it was the closest thing,

but i have to peal my body off the back seat because of how tired, stressed, and numb i feel

"you good mamas"

Xani asked i get up and rub my eyes

"i hope i will be after i eat"

we all walk inside but i walk in with a small blanket around me and my hoodie hiding me