My Lover Is HalfDEAD♥- vkook,namjin,jihope FF

10-"Try to understand"

JUNGKOOK'S POV

It's morning I thought when I felt warmness of sun rays hitting my face i don't know why my body kindda feels numb. When I tried to move myself I felt two bulky arms around me pulling me closer to a hard rock chest I again tried to get away from the grip not processing that who is holding me like his life depends on me, then, then it hit me last night, Mr. Tae, me being dazed by his touch, my first time, ME MOANING, HAVING PLEASURE CAUSE OF HIM. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Right now my brain is full mess I pushed him a little and sat up trying not to wake him up but he did looking at me with half opened eyes a smile form on his lips OH GOD he's fucking handsome.

No jk be in your senses don't drown in this features.

"Good morning~ bun~" he said oh God help me his husky voice. I flinched on his voice and he noticed it, that smile soon replaces with a smirk as he pulled me closer to him and hugged my waist resting his head on my lap burring his face in my stomach. "How was the last night hmm~?" He asked and shivers ran down my spine I was so desperate to know that did I really lost my virginity I was confused I don't remember whole thing I just can't remember it,
So I asked not thinking anything.

"Did you go through all way in?"

"Did you were gentle on my first?"

"Did you used protection?"

"Am I gonna be pregnant?."

"Are you gonna love them even if it's boy or girl?"

"Are you gonna marry me or will you throw me somewhere?"

"Tell me are yo-"

My words got cut off just because of "ahahaha......hahaha.... HAHAHA AHAHA OH-OH GOD.... HAHAHAHAHA My my bun my cute precious bun haha" yes he's laughing on my questions, HE'S FUCKIING LAUGHING.

"Why are yo-you laughing do-dont you know that every virgin person always wants to keep his first time as a memorable thing in mind I-I don't remember last night clearly that's why I'm asking if you don't wanna tell then go away right now."

I said trying to push him off me but he laughed and held my waist and flipped on his back that make me lay up on his chest completely as he smiled, and my cheeks started to heat up I know that right now I'm looking like a tomato but I still tried to show him that he don't have any effect on me as I huffed showing him that I'm annoyed and he again chuckled now taking a big inhale on my neck and I got goosebumps yes I got goosebumps, ah why does he have to be near me like this close, is it compulsory?

TAE'S POV

His eyes holds the galaxy I can feel his heart beating like crazy, oh how much I wish to also have a heart beat so that I can also show him how my heart beats on only his name it's not like that my heart don't beat at all since I met this little fluff ball it's like it's just wanted to beat for him. Whenever I get close to him it beats like 3-4 times but the beats are so small to felt by others so no one can know about it other than me and last night it felt like miracle the time I entered in my room seeing bun on my bed it started to beat and it didn't beat like only few times it just continued beating till I fell asleep with my love in my arms also now when I'm near him it beats few time.

(A/n: oh my how many 'beat's' I just wrote in this paragraph.)

"Yes you lost your virginity." I said mockingly and his eyes widened I noticed that his eyes started to become glossy oh no no no he's gonna cry I don't want it, every time his cries make my heart sink that was so much for me to handle "uwwah....annh..... You're so-so bad why did y-you took my only most pre-precious thing annnh hann... You're bad you're bad you're bad...." And he started to cry like a baby hitting my chest with his baby fists, well he is a baby, my baby but right now I have to calm him down I catched his wrists with my both hands and sat up on bed making him sit on lap but he was still resisting and crying trying to hit me "sssh.... sssh my bun ssh... I'm just joking nothing big happened last night bun please don't cry baby I'm sorry I'm so sorry." I said in the most soft voice I can use to calm him more and I think it worked cause he stopped wiggling and look at me in my eyes sniffing "re-really nothing happened is it true, but why I remembered that you k.....kissed me and....and you also...also you..." That was when he clearly remembered everything and he noticed that he was in my lap wearing last night's net gown but nothing under it cause I ripped the panty.

He tried to dashe out of my lap but I hugged him tightly as sobs left his mouth I really hate his heart clenching sobs I again tried to calm him "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry my love my bun I'm sorry that I made you cry please don't cry I'm sorry I'll do anything but just calm down I'm sorry about last night that I forced you...but when you didn't resisted my touch I thought you are opening up to me I'm sorry that I forced you." I said desperately wanting him to stop crying but he didn't stop. His cries were a little low but still he didn't stop and said "I didn't do a-any thing cause I wanted to be patient but I still told you to let me go. And how could you say nothing big happened..... The thing happened last night was so much for me to process." He sniffled "I'm sorry bun you know I told you that I'm a HalfDEAD my heart is dead only you can make it alive and whenever I came near you it beats and last night it beated like crazy that I couldn't controlled myself and I crossed the limits I'm sorry love please try to understand me." And now his body relaxed a little in my hold "Try to understand you, can I will be able to ever understand you I want to understand you but I just can't." He signed heavily and pulled out from the hug  but stayed on my lap looking directly in my eyes, his eyes were swelled and red cause of crying but he still looked etheral "you said you will do anything if I stop crying, right?" He said and I nodded ready to hear 'i wanna leave and stay away from me and never ever come to my sight' my eyes started to become red as he started confused looking in my eyes but still said "I want to meet jimin, my friend and I also want him to visit me  like 3 times a week can you give this one thing I have no one only jimin." He said and I released the breath I was holding and my eyes started to come to their real colour I was happy that he didn't asked me to let him go but why he didn't do it.

"Okay I will bring him here and he also will visit you as you said I promise" I smiled very wide I was sure I've never smiled like that and he said he wanted to freshen up so I left the room for him and told maids to clean the room properly and give bun a delicious breakfast.

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JUNGKOOK'S POV

Its been 3 hours since Mr. Taehyung left the room I took a relaxing bath of 25 minutes and had the breakfast again with grandma yes she came to my room when I was about to have breakfast and she told me that she knew everything about last night I felt a little embarrassed but she told me that I did great when I asked sir about to meet jimin instead of leaving this place she told me that God really loves me and he will make everything good if I be patient to take decision. I heard a knock on the door and said a small come in and when the door opened it revealed that it's Jimin. I stood up from the bed and ran to him before I could fall cause of chain jimin hugged me tightly and we both started to cry I felt like we are separated from centuries even it's had been only two days when I stopped crying he told me about how he panicked when I didn't picked up my calls and at last he asked his boyfriend about it and how his boyfriend told him everything about Mr. Tae to him and how only I can help him "hobi also told me every thing about his past kookie but I'm sorry I can't tell you, you have to find everything about him on your own please be patient and..... Try to understand him kookie please give a little trust I swear you're not gonna regret it." Jimin said making me think again about how he comforted me in the morning how he said many sorry's to me I think I liked his gentle side so much so I will try I will Try to understand him.

To be continued.....

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Okay so here's the new chapter I'm sorry it's not edited and also sorry about my grammar mistakes please forgive me😅😅