Sunoo Pov.
From Mission Abort:
Hi Good afternoon boss! Wag mo na muna isipin yon. Tsaka kung talagang narinig mo kami ibig sabihin alam mo ding sinabi ko na pagiisipan ko muna diba. Just rest sunoo.... like I said last night I won't leave you hanging. Take care.
I know bit by bit I'm getting attached to the attention sunghoon's been giving me. I can't deny that I like the way he annoys me at random times but..... I'm scared, of course. It's only natural to be scared, we're not really a thing. I'm not even sure if we can call ourselves friends right now. It's been months, I guess, since we met at Starbucks. At first I don't really mind the way he tease and annoy me. I just talk back so that he knows that I'm not weak. I didn't know that, I'm getting attached to the attention, to the point I can't really see myself waking up without it.
"Why did you left?" Jungwon asked.
"I need to study..." he drops the food in my desk and looked at me like I'm having some disease.
"You need to study what?! Where on a break remember? Nakalimutan mo atang we have the same school and I know your schedule." He said.
"Just... please won. Not right now." I pleaded.
"No! Hyung! I-I.... you don't really need to do this. If you like him just say it... he's willing to have a chance with you." Of course not! I heard what they talked about. Sunghoon said he's not ready. He just love the thrill.
"You don't know that! I heard what he said to you last night won. He's just like the other guys who loves to chase me but when things goes hard they stop." I talked back.
"Did you really heard it all? Or you just make that conclusion of yours." I look at him.
"Sunghoon hyung.... he's not ready... not because he doesn't really like you, he's just confuse na baka he likes you because of the thrill so he still need time to think if he's going to pursue you. He doesn't want to hurt you hyung. He doesn't want to hurt your feelings, just because he isn't so sure about what he feels about you." He calmly said.
"He's not sure? Then stop!" I shout.
"He likes you hyung! I swear! But again.... he's confuse. His taking his time to think things first because he doesn't want to hurt you or your feelings." He said.
"And if he realizes that he only wants the fucking thrill again?! Then what?! What jungwon!? What if he realize na he doesn't really likes me?" He stop.
" I don't want unsure feelings won. You know how hesitation kills me, you've been there when I cried at night just because I thought someone might actually likes the real me then the next day they call it off. If he's not sure then don't. I don't need someone. I'm fine with myself." I look back at my ipad to end the conversation. Im just.... Im tired. Im just too tired.
"Okay... just.. just eat hyung. I really care about you, You know I love you right? I don't want to see you lying in hospital just because you push yourself too much." He kissed my forehead before going out of my room.
I don't want to eat. So I continue reviewing topics for the next semester. 9:00 pm when I heard jungwon talking to someone but I can't really hear anything.
Mission Abort calling.....
What the freak!? Why is he calling!? I thought I'm clear when I say I don't want to hear anything from him. Just calm sunoo. Keep calm.
