Solis Ocassum

𝓟𝓻𝓸𝓵𝓸𝓰𝓾𝓮

'Where did we go wrong? I know we started out alright' (13-Lany)

You know that feeling? When thoughts would run through your head and you can't do anything about it?

It's tiring.

So, I've decided to talk to him. Of course I asked his gf for an approval to talk to him as a sign of respect.

"Hi! It's been a while...these past few days, I've been trying to dig everything. Clearly, everything still bothers me and I want answers for my own peace of mind. I want to know the whole story as a closure."

He sighed.

"You might think that 'we're already over so why am I still bringing this up?'"

"Uh huh" he replied.

"The thing is I'm not trying to ruin your relationship, just like what I've said I want answers for my own peace of mind." I stated.

"Now, tell me...

Not so long ago, after our break up, naging kayo ni Bianca, so I came up with thought that she's the reason why we broke up. You only used that 'mistress' thingy so that I would broke up with you. So you and Bianca can be together.

But I do not have any proof to any of that and I only have tons of unsure conclusions."

He sipped on his coffee and let me continue what I'm saying.

"I've heard nung mag M.U. pa tayo, you and Bianca are flirting with each other...is it true or just a rumor? But based on Bianca's sharedpost and own post before, I've conluded that you guys were in a relationship."

I took out my phone and showed him my screenshots.

"However, I would like you to tell me the whole truth." I finished my speech and he sighed before responding.

"It's all true. I had a girlfriend before nung mag M.U. pa tayo. And yes, I've flirted with Bianca that time too. But I did love you. I'm sorry, Aurum."

"Hindi, you didn't love me. If you did, hindi ka na mahuhulog sa iba. You're just infatuated." I immediately stated.

His apology even looked so insincere. Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong umiyak.

"I did. I did love you. I told Bianca that I have you and tried to stop her but she continued flirting with me and I flirted back, I'm sorry. When my gf before you, broke up with me, I fell inlove with Bianca because she comforted me."

I rolled my eyes at that and laughed sarcastically. Comflirt.

"You tried to stop her? Maybe you didn't even try at all. Nagpaharot ka, that only means na I'm not enough for you." I said.

"I'm sorry pinigilan ko naman eh, ilang beses ko pinigilan pero tangina hindi ko magawa." he replied.

Tsk. I ignored what he said.

"Mind telling me the whole story?" I asked him instead.

he immediately spoke and told me the whole story.

"Ok, be happy then. It'll take me a lot of time 'til I heal but atleast I won't be jumping onto many conclusions and thinking that much anymore. But here's a thing, don't step onto something you're not sure of,  it'll only make everything complicated in the end. Deal with everything such as situations like a man, not a boy. If you can still stop something, then do it. Whatever it takes, whatever it costs, as long as you know you're doing the right thing or preventing something that would ruin you. It's either you lose someone without feeling guilty or the other way around. And despite everything, I've been happy with you. Farewell." I said and immediately stood up from my seat.

I am very disappointed of his decisions. Some of his reasons weren't even valid.

Although I understand na nahulog siya kay Bianca. Yun lang ang valid sa mga sinabi niya.

Days have passed and I can feel that I'm getting better.

Since it was summer, I don't have anything to do, so I've decided to join to a musichood.

Solace Musichood.

I've focused on making musics with my own composition atleast to move on.

6 Months later...

Solis Ocassum.
Pain has set me free. I am now healed.