don't you want me baby....

chapter 49- hallucinations

(Sandy's pov)

Me and Nikki had just came back from shopping she picked out a bright pink bra and thong and a sheer black nighty. I had to lure him in.  I was sitting on the bed scrolling through my instagram it was basically people saying Renee was getting fat ha. Bitch. When the door opened.

Me: hey babe how was the gym? 

Jon: ergh yeah it was erm good I suppose.

He seemed on edge. He layed on the bed with a bottle of water and started surfing through the tv. I slipped of the bed and went through to the bathroom grabbing

The bag On the way there. I went in and slipped out of my clothes. I slid on the bra pants and nighty. I touched up my make up and curled my hair. I walked out of the bathroom and Jon was on the bed playing on his phone. He never noticed me so I layed down on the bed facing him.

Me:what you up to?

Jon: not much really. He mumbled without even looking at me.

Sandy : do I look nice? 

He turned his head towards me.

(Jon's pov)

I know I really shouldn't but this is distracting me from everything. I kissed Eva and I may have got Renee pregnant but this WILL take my mind of it.

Me: you look amazing! Bet it looks better Off!

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We were half way through sex I had shut my eyes whilst I tried containing my pleasure.I opened them where the fuck I'm I? I was looking down and her stomach was massive. Like she was pregnant. I looked up to her. What the fuck it was Renee.

'Are you gonna get her pregnant as well? '

I shook my head I looked again hoping it would be sandys face. Oh no bright red hair,big boobs I looked at the face. Yep it was Eva.

'does she really know what your like?'

I stopped leaving my self in her.

Sandy: jon whats wrong? 

Me: I errm feel sick.

I pulled out and ran to the bathroom I hung my head over the toilet more in shame than anything else.I was sick it had genuinely got to me. Renee being pregnant? Kissing Eva? And now sleeping with Sandy after all I've done. She Doesn't deserve me.

Sandy: are you okay?

Said Sandy as she was rubbing my back.

Me:mmm I'm just a bit under the weather I guess.... 

Sandy: so that's what's been wrong with you? 

Me: yeah....

Sandy went to her bed shortly after.  I went through and watched tv I feel asleep on the couch shortly after....

Omg deanee is real I love them together go Renee!!!!!!! 

Dean is having big style regret.... 
Really bad chapter sorry but I just wanted to show how much it's affecting dean.