You and Megan are packing up your things to leave tomorrow morning when Meg gets a text from George. "Hey Jords, George has asked if we want to go for dinner with him and the other drivers tonight?" Mentally a soft groan formed across your lips as all you wanted to do was crawl into bed, watch a movie and get a early nights sleep.
After you left Lando earlier, you were once happy again to be back on good terms with him. Although this did make everything so much harder as you now know how Lando feels about you. He told you he liked you but how much can you really trust someone you have only known for a weekend. How you can your trust someone who you have spent half of your time knowing in an argument. How can you trust someone who can so easily scream at you and let hurtful words slip out of their mouth like it was nothing. But at the same time, there was something about the uncertainty that excited you. You have always heard people talk about the chase like it was a game, making it their aim to target one person and make them fall in love with you. It was something that never appealed to you before but it seems that Lando is playing that game and part of you wanted to join in. The excitement of getting to know someone that is unpredictable and could easily break your heart. You wanted the type of love that was epic and intense, the type of love that would make you stop breathing around the other person just due to the sheer attraction that you felt towards them. Lando gave you that. He brought out a side of you that no one ever had before and you crave that feeling.
But Charles...Charles was a completely different type of love. He was a love story full or care and romance. He was a safe love, a comfort blanket protecting you from all the bad things in the world. He was so affectionate and gentle, the way his eyes made you melt and his simple touch made you calm. When you were with him, nothing else in the world mattered. You could imagine yourself following him around the world watching him race and exploring different countries with him. He was the type of guy you always thought and wished you would end up with, but now is that really want you want? Do you want the safe love or will you always crave the excitement? Will the safe love be enough for you?
The mental sigh had turned into a real one as it fell off your lips whilst slumping down on the bed. Dinner with both Lando and Charles tonight wasn't a good idea. You still needed time to think about what you were going to do moving forward and more importantly, who you were going to choose.
"I'm not really feeling up to it Meg, can you go without me?" Your best friend approaches the bed and you feel the soft mattress dip beside you with her sitting on it. She takes your hand in hers and looks at you causing your face to fill with confusion as she never normally acts this way... sympathetic you mean. She normally goes for the tough love approach but clearly she can see that you are struggling. "Listen to me darling. No boy or driver is worth your stress or tears. Everything will work itself out and you need to let fate decide everything for you. Live your life and make sure you are happy, everything else will fall into place" A smile forms your lips as the tears continue to prick at your eyes, threatening to fall. You don't know what you would do without her, she makes life so bearable and is the main reason your not breaking from panic attacks twenty four seven. Bringing Megan into hug, you feel her giggle against you at the sudden form of affection, something the two of you were not used to sharing. "Let's get you dolled up darling. We have boys to make jealous" she winks at you and pulls you up with her off the bed.
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As you step into the elevator, your heart begins to pound once again and the all too common feeling of panic flows through your body. You were nervous to see the boys again and you were nervous about how you looked. It was a more formal dinner and a celebration of the recent race that happened earlier this afternoon. You were nervous about how Lando and Charles would act around you and with each other. You were sure that there was still animosity between them due to the race but with you put into the mixture, it might make it worse.
The sparkly blush material of your dress slipped through your fingers and you anxiously fiddled with it, constantly adjusting the neckline to make sure it looked perfect. "You look amazing Jordan, look at these photos from earlier. Surely you are aware of how hot you look right now" Megan hands you her phone with a wink as you look at the image on the screen.
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She was right, the dress did look amazing. The image had done just what Megan had intended and made you feel more comfortable. Heck it made you feel better than that, you felt hot and that was all the confidence you needed to walk into the evening ahead.
*ding* grabbing Megan's hand as soon as you heard the noise, she gives you a reassuring nod. This was it. Here goes nothing.
The elevator doors pulled open and your eyes fall on the group of people in front of you. They turn their heads in your direction after they hear Isabel let out a sequel of excitement. "You guys look amazing!" Isabel brings you both into a tight hug before whispering in your ear "your going to drive these boys wild darling" she shoots you a wink and walks back over to Carlos who shot you a reassuring look making you feel even better.
Isabel was right, the boys couldn't keep their eyes off you. "Hi everyone" you wave at the group with the sudden new flow of confidence you had. Your eyes flutter over to Charles who is looking drop dead gorgeous in his all black suit and perfectly fixed hair. His eyes never left your body, scanning your figure up and down whilst taking his bottom lip in between his teeth. This simple action made your stomach flip on itself and the blush formed your cheeks once again. "Mon agne, you look incredible" He takes a few steps closed and wraps your petite body into a long overdue hug, also leaving down to place a gentle kiss on your forehead.
"Doesn't she just" your stomach drops as you hear the familiar British voice speak behind you. Flipping your head info his direction you find Lando stood behind you with his jaw clenched tightly over the sight of you and Charles. He takes a smile onto his mouth so that he's it causing to scene but to you, it's so obvious that it's fake. It's not the same smile that fills your memories and makes your heart burst, it's one that is forced.
"Hi" you smile sweetly at him, releasing yourself from Charles arms and falling into his. The feeling of his arms wrapped around you again felt so good, but you couldn't enjoy this feeling for long, especially not in front of Charles. Lando pulls away keeping one arm wrapped around your shoulders "let's get going gang".
As everyone nods in agreement and begin is leaving, you stay behind slightly and walk with Megan, taking her arm in yours with a big sigh of frustration"let's get this night over with"
