how did it come to this? once a happy memory now causes only pain. the memories we made to make us happy, all those times we laughed, we smiled, we didn't care about anything but eachother. now it's like they didn't exist, like we didn't exist. now we don't talk, we dont even exchange a smile as we pass eachother. how did it come to this? was I to loving? was my all not enough? I can't seam to comprehend what I did wrong. I know it's my fault it always is. it is in your eyes anyway. what happened to all those plans we had, all those things that were to come. did they mean nothing? were they always nothing...you moved on pretty quickly for someone that was "in love" with me. I bet you said all the things you said to me to her. was I just a way to kill time, someone to distract you from the loneliness that engulfs you every moment youre alone. a way to kill time, that's all I ever was. a way out of feeling like you don't belong. but what about me? did my feelings even matter? now I'm sat here, listening to the screams of the past. it hurts. why did you hurt me? I did you no wrong. did I do something to deserve this? I gave you every part of me, body,mind,soul, was it not enough. I was naked around you, and not just in a physical way, but every inch of my mind was naked around you. everything, you knew everything and still this happened. was I to much of a fuck up for you? was I not perfect like you told me I was? how did it come to this? please tell me so I can end this god awful pain
