I'll Be Your Soldier (Before You Exit)

Hate

The boys performed amazingly tonight. Once they were finished we headed to the hotel for the night.

Usually Poppy and I would share a room but she knew Toby needed me and I needed him so she offered to share a room with Riley and Connor. Thomas and Ryan were sharing.

Toby and I were in our room, talking about the show when all of a such Toby broke down.

"Hey what's wrong???" I asked

"I wish they would leave me alone, they don't like me Grace. I should just leave."

"No you can't leave, I need you and so does Connor and Riley. The band wouldn't be the same without you."

"But they don't like me."

"Their just jealous of you, you get to do what you love and they are at home hating on you. Don't listen to them."

Toby didn't say anything just got up from the couch on went to his bed.

"Toby you should get some sleep."

"I can't, every time I go to sleep I have nightmares."

"Just try." He got into bed and closed his eyes and before I knew it he was fast asleep.

I grabbed mine and his phone because he needs a brake from Twitter and left the room.

I walked down the hall to Connor, Riley and Poppy's room.

I knocked on the door and Riley answered.

"Hey what's up???" I ask

"Hey, not much just watching TV."

"Where's Connor??"

"In his room."

"Ok thanks I need to talk to him."

I walked down the hall and knocked on Connors door.

"Come in."

I walked in to see him listening to music.

"Hey."

"Hey Gracie."

"I need to talk to you. It's about Toby."

"Okay??"

"Have you seen mine and Toby's hate??"

"No." I grabbed my phone and opened Twitter and found my hate hashtag.

"Here's mine." I say passing him the phone. I watched his face as he read some of it.

"I'm so sorry Gracie."

"Toby's is worse." I say grabbing my phone back and finding his hashtag.

I passed him back my phone and watched as he read his brothers hate. You could see his eyes starting to tear up.

"I never knew it was this bad." He said

"We need to show Riley." I said "He should know."

I walked to the door and yelled

"RILEY COME HERE PLEASE."

"Coming."

I went back and sat next to Connor.

"What's up??" Riley asked as he walked into the room.

"We need to show you something." I say passing him my phone. "It's Toby's hate."

His smile was wiped of his face in seconds and was replaced with tears.

"Guys he wants to leave, Not just the band life as well." I say

"No he can't. We need him." Connor says.

"I know."

"I'm going to go and get some sleep talk to you tomorrow." I say getting up and leaving.

"Night Gracie." Connor said

"Night."

I walked back to my hotel room to see Toby peacefully sleeping. I don't know how long that was going to bed but it was good for him.

The next morning.

Toby had woke up at about 3am and wouldn't go back to sleep so we hadn't had very much sleep.

The boys were performing again tonight but it was there show not Olly's.

Connor, Riley and Poppy had come down to our room at about 9 and we had gone out to get Starbucks.

While we were at Starbucks we talked about the show night and what songs they were going to sing.

Later that night.

The boys had just finished there meet and greet and we were hanging out in the dressing room.

"Where's Toby???" I asked worried about where he was.

"He said he was going to the bathroom." Poppy said.

"I'll be back." I walked out of the rooms and down to the hallway.

I found Toby sitting in the corner.

"Hey Toby." I say sitting next to him.

"Hi."

"What's up?"

"Nothing much, just putting my head in the right place for the show."

"You'll do amazing."

"Thank you Grace."

We sat in silence for a while until I Connor and Riley come to say it was the time for the show.

Poppy and I went and stood in the crowd.

I was looking around the crowd we I use a sign that said "Go away Toby no likes you."

I went over to security to ask them to go and get the sign before they come out but I was too late.

I looked and Toby and you could see the sadness in his eyes. He looked over at me and I mouthed "ignore it".

The show went on and they had about four songs left when fans started yelling things about Toby.

"No one likes you Toby."
"Go die Toby."
"Leave the band no one likes you."

I looked straight into his eyes before he ran off stage crying. I sprinted from where I was standing backstage.

"TOBYYY." I yelled and ran over to him. I hugged him and just let him cry.

Connor and Riley weren't far behind me.

"Just finish the show without him." I say.

"Are you sure Toby??" Riley asked. Toby just nodded his head.

I walked Toby back to the dressing room and we sat on the couch.

We sat in silence. Toby lying on the couch with his head in my lap and tears still in his eyes.

"Why do they hate me? I never did anything to them." Toby asked

"To be honest I have no idea. I wish I did but I don't." I say.

"Toby I know this is hard but don't listen to them. The most important thing is that Connor, Riley and I love you and so do Poppy, Thomas and Ryan." I say. "I don't know what I would do without you.

We sat in silence again until I heard soft snores.

"Goodnight Toby." I whisper kissing his forehead.

Not long after Toby fell asleep did Connor and Riley come off stage.

They walked into the room talking really loudly.

"Shhhhhh he's sleeping."

"Sorry." I say

"Guys we need to talk, I think the Toby should......."