My baby daddy (Casualty)

Twenty two

Alyssa sat in her flat with cal. She looked to him and smiled as he sat playing with Ella as she sat feeding poppy

"so I thought we could talk over us" alyssa said as cal nodded. Alyssa looked as Ella walked across the room to play as she wished poppy and placed her in her Moses basket and sighed as she looked to her and smiled

"you know that we have been through so much together and now we have two kids and we always seem to find a way back to each other and I know it isn't going to be easy but I do want us to try again but I am also uncertain as you have hurt me so much in the past and I don't think I can go through that again. I want this to be for real. You know, no secrets, no lies, no cheating or hurting anyone else as I think we have both grown and changed as people and we are parents to these two bit of you don't think you can do that then it's okay I guess I can find a way to deal with it I mean it will be hard but I can deal with it" alyssa said as cal looked to her and smiled as he took a hold of her hand and smiled

"I want to try again too but I don't want us to rush into anything because of the girls I think we both need to have a real think over it" he said as alyssa looked to him and nodded
   
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Alyssa smiled as she answered the door to the flat as she saw bailee "hey" alyssa said as she lead bailee inside

"I thought you and cal were going to have a talk I expected to find him here" bailee said as alyssa looked to her and smiled

"we did but he took the girls out. We talked over getting back together and I mean I told him I want to but I am scared part of me is doubting it and I don't know what to do" alyssa said as bailee looked to her and smiled

"you and cal have been through so much lately and you deserve to be happy, you should follow your heart and do what is best for you. Look cal is a good guy and I know he has hurt you before but he isn't that guy anymore. He is a changed man and he is a good dad and you can trust him and after everything you deserve to be happy more than anything else, you really do" bailee said as alyssa looked to her and smiled hoping that she was right and hoping that she and cal could find a way to be together and be happy after everything that they had been through together

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Alyssa lay in bed next to cal breathless. They had just finished having sex. She looked to him and smirked

"that's one thing that has never changed between us I suppose" cal said as alyssa looked to him and chuckled knowing that he was right.

Alyssa knew how things were and she knew how scared that she was but she knew that she wanted to do the right thing but could cal and Alyssa really try again knowing how torn she felt over it all?